Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
"I tamed him," Carlton explained with a slight access of colour. "The
house is overrun with them, but this fellow lets none of the others in
here."
The bishop was slow to follow up his exclamation. He certainly was a man
of fewer words than formerly.
"You ought not to have made yourself such an anchorite," he said at
last. "You might have smoked your pipe--you say that's your first--and
written to me sooner!"
So that still rankled. Carlton was not altogether surprised.
"My lord," said he, "how could I? You had advised me to live anywhere
else, and yet here I was!"
"The circumstances justified you, Mr. Carlton. I could not foresee such
circumstances, I assure you. I heard of them, however, at the time."
Carlton had never written till the five years were nearly up, when it
became a necessary preliminary to the resumption of those offices from
which he had been debarred; but, when he did write, he had done so to
such effect that certain other preliminaries had been foregone.
"Though you did not write," continued the bishop, "Sir Wilton Gleed did.
We had some correspondence about you, and we disagreed; that is one
reason why I declined his invitation and accepted yours. I would not
mention it, only you are now such excellent friends. And I understand
that he himself makes no secret of his former attitude towards you."
"On the contrary, he has expressed the most generous regret for the line
he took."
"He may well regret it," said the bishop.
But Carlton had accepted his old enemy's aid, and would not hear ill of
him, whatever he might think. "It was natural enough," he murmured.
"What! To prevent you from making the one reparation in your power? To
have you boycotted right and left? To trump up a criminal charge? To
force you, a clergyman, to remain in your own parish, labouring like a
convict by the year together? To trample the cloth underfoot in the eyes
of all the world?"
"Oh," groaned Carlton, "it was I who did that! I alone am to blame for
that--I alone!"
He leant his elbows on the chimney-piece, his face in his hands; for
stand he must if he was only to hear harsh words--that night of all
nights! Carlton was unprepared for such severity at this stage; and
infinitely hurt; for at his worst, when he deserved no sympathy at all,
the bishop had shown much more. But behind his back the blazing eyes
were quenched, and the long mouth relaxed.
"No, no," a softer voice said; "you have done just the opposite--just
the opposite. You have been hard enough upon yourself; but the world was
harder on you--once."
There was kindness in the rasping voice, but no enthusiasm. None other
had made so little of the mere physical feat of this man; and to him
the tone was unmistakable.
"I know what you mean," said Carlton, turning round, his own eye alight.
"You think the world is going to the other extreme!"
"It generally does," replied the bishop. "I do not mean to be unkind."
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