Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
"I did--but I had long been thinking of it," he said, hastily. "Oh, my
lord, in my place you would do the same! How could I continue here to be
smiled on by these poor people? It was easier when they looked the other
way, when I lived in this room alone, doing everything for myself, and
not a soul came near me. How can I settle down again to a prosperous
life--here of all places--with my child in the parish, and his poor
mother . . . That is what they all forget in the generous warmth of
their reaction; but the more they forget, the more keenly I remember.
Ah! do you think I ever have forgotten--for an hour--for a moment--since
I left off working with my hands?"
One of these was stretched in the direction of the churchyard; and the
bishop read its touching testimony for the first time.
"There," whispered Carlton, in strange excitement, "there lies one . . .
whose ruin and whose death are at my door. I don't forget--I never have
forgotten. I have paid, and I will pay till the end. And there shall be
no other woman . . ."
His tongue failed him; his face was grief-stricken; the whole man was
changed. So then the human being, his bishop, knew that there was
another woman in his heart already; recalled the most terrible part of
this man's confession to him, years before; and presently plucked him by
the sleeve. And the voice that Robert Carlton heard, as he leaned once
more with his elbow on the chimney-piece, and his face between his
hands, was the voice of their last interview, at the bishop's palace, in
the blank forenoon of a wet summer's day.
"Forgive me," it said, "for I also have misjudged you in my turn. But
now I see--but now I see, and am ashamed . . . Your life has been hard,
my brother, but it has been brave! You have been through the depths, but
you have also touched the heights, and I think that God must be very
near you to-night. I see now that you are right to go; you are both
nobler and wiser than I thought; may happiness, and peace, and love
itself go with you first or last. Let us kneel together before I leave
you, and humbly pray that it may still be so!"
When the bishop retired, Robert Carlton returned to his study, and
prayed by himself until a knock at the outer door brought him to his
feet, much startled; for it was eleven at night.
He was still more startled when he reached the door, for there stood a
soldier straight and tall, sunburnt and jaunty; a medal with clasps and
the Egyptian star upon his scarlet breast; a smile behind the trim
moustache; right hand at the salute. It was only after a prolonged stare
that Carlton recognised the smart young man.
"George Mellis?" he cried. "Come in--come in!"
"That's me, sir," said George, entering like a machine. "But--can it be
you, Mr. Carlton?"
And his smile vanished as the lamplight fell upon the grey hairs and the
deep furrows which made the clergyman look nearly twice his years.
"Yes, George. I have aged a little. But so have you."
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