Atonement -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
A sheet of sermon paper was ruled in six columns and a margin; the
columns were headed by the days of the week; down the margin the days
were divided into three periods, a short and two long; it was the
class-room chart of his school-days over again. In future he would rise
at five; four was too early. The short period before breakfast should be
daily devoted to work in the house. The place must be made and kept
habitably clean; that could be left partly to the wet days. Then there
was the kitchen work, the preparation of food for the day, baking two
days a week, the occasional slaughter of a sheep; and here Carlton
paused to grapple with the appalling problem presented by the hungriest
of living men and the smallest of slain sheep . . . Salt seemed the
solution . . . Salt mutton? . . . At any rate all carnal cares and
menial duties should be disposed of for the day as early as possible in
the early morning; not till then would he break his fast; and the real
day's work should begin as near eight o'clock as might be, but as often
as possible on the right side of the hour. Moreover, it should begin
with the lighter labour: scraping and repointing the uncondemned walls,
for example; that would take one man weeks or months; but it would not
tire him out at the beginning of the day. Then there was the preparation
of the stones; the careful scraping of those preserved; classification
as to size for the various courses; cutting and fitting of fresh
stones; the actual building with trowel and plummet. All this went under
one head, and was for the body of the day; a long spell broken by a good
meal and a determined rest. The day should finish, for many a day to
come, with a savage attack upon the chaos within the walls. A hand too
tired for skilled labour would still be fit for that.
And as Robert Carlton reached this stage in the laying of his ingenious
plans, he leaned back in his chair, and stared at his dull reflection in
the diamond panes above his writing table, in a sudden horror of himself
and all his ways and works. He was actually happy--he! The reaction was
the same in kind as that which had come to him at the shed, in the joy
of touching hammer and chisel again, and which had driven him to the
hall next morning. But it was greater in degree: for then he had seen
how happy he might be; to-night he knew how happy he was.
"But only in my work! Only in my work!" he cried, and fell upon his
knees to crave forgiveness from the Almighty for daring to enjoy the
consolation which He had ordained for him.
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