Peradventure; or, The Silence of GodKeable, Robert
Religion
Peradventure; or, The Silence of God
Keable, Robert
Church of England -- Fiction; Religion -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Paul sprang to his feet. "With you, it looks inevitable. You
hypnotise me into believing. But there are heaps of things to be said.
I do see the need for authority; I do understand the reasonableness of
the whole philosophy--from the Incarnation to relics and
indulgences--it's reasonable enough, it's logical; but is it true? Is
Peter true? Is the Church what you say? Come to that, is the Gospel
story itself true? Is it? Is it? Oh, my God, I would give everything
to know!"
He stood there, hands flung out, his whole soul in his face. And as
his tense voice ceased, the silence of the room hemmed them in.
Slowly Father Vassall got, too, to his feet. They faced each other
across the rug, and the black Madonna, hung with dripping beads, thrust
her Son out before them.
"Oh, my dear, I'm afraid for you!" whispered the priest, staring.
"Afraid?"
He nodded. "You see, you have the soul of a r-religious and that's no
t-t-trifle. And there you dare to stand, asking if the story of
B-Bethlehem and C-Calvary is true!"
"Well?" Paul was defiant.
The priest crossed the room, and came back from a little search on the
table with a paper in his hand. All the merriment had died out of his
face; it looked years older, wan. "I w-want you to p-promise me
something," he said, stammering much again in his emotion.
Paul leant back against the mantelpiece, wearily. "What, Father?" he
asked; "I'll do anything I can."
"You c-c-can do this, ea-easily. Don't let's argue any more all the
time you're here. Don't read books, except the N-N-New T-T-Testament.
And promise me to pray this every day in the chapel before the
S-Sacrament with all your heart."
He held out a paper. "I've w-w-written it out for you," he said.
Paul took the half-sheet of notepaper, written in the clear print of
the priest's hand. He read it through once, and then he read it
through again, only, this time, the letters were a little blurred.
Then he looked up at his friend.
"Father," he said, "I can't help it. I know this, whatever anyone
says. You bring our Lord to me as no one and nothing else has ever
done."
"Ah, then," cried the priest, "if you turn back now!"
Bridget put her head in. "Supper's ready, your reverence," she said.
Father Vassall nodded swiftly at her. "You promise?" he said, turning
to Paul.
"Oh, yes. And you'll pray for me?"
Father Vassall laughed meaningly. "Come to supper," he said gaily.
"It's p-p-pork and b-b-beans. But I can give you a glass of
Sp-Sp-Spanish B-B-Burgundy!"
(2)
In the chapel that night Paul prayed his prayer for the first time.
The priest walked in before him and showed him to his chair and a
prayer-desk with a courtly little gesture. The three servants sat
behind. A candle was already lit for Paul, and one burned also for the
priest in his corner. There was a white sanctuary lamp before the
altar, and a red one on the left. Otherwise there was no light.
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