Peradventure; or, The Silence of GodKeable, Robert
Religion
Peradventure; or, The Silence of God
Keable, Robert
Church of England -- Fiction; Religion -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
"Well, first, the character of the messages changed a little. His
friends in the _gnosis_ warned him of mischievous spirits, even of bad
ones, but he was not to be afraid. He would not be afraid. For a
while the good returned--and riveted his chains more firmly. Then the
shadow crept in again. He was told of a new morality, led on to seek
relief in stimulants, encouraged to voyage far and often in trance. At
last only there, in trance, was there full escape. He loathed himself,
but his waking life was beset with devils, prurient curiosity,
perverted sensuality, a desire to inflict pain. He struggled, but in
vain. But in the trance-sleep he was free."
A motor car hummed up the hill and buzzed over the crest. Etheridge
"waited till the sound died away. Neither of his listeners moved.
"And then one day, Mr. Kestern," went on the narrator at last evenly,
"having gone over in trance, he found his return barred. He could see
his own body on the couch and he longed to re-enter it. But he could
not. A Watcher stood on the Threshold. For an eternity there seemed
no possibility of return."
Paul moistened dry lips. "A watcher?" he managed to ask.
"Yes. Beyond telling. Do you loathe anything? Have you ever felt
Fear? Do you shrink from corruption, its scent and sight? You cannot
imagine all those incarnate, but it was that."
"My G-G-God," said Father Vassall. "That's enough, Etheridge."
"But you are here," cried Paul. "What saved you?"
"The grace of God, which is beyond telling, at the moment, and, under
Him, Father Vassall afterwards. He may tell you if he please."
Paul glanced at the priest. But he shook his head. "I t-t-told you it
was the d-d-devil," he said.
"Father Vassall, perhaps, can hardly speak of it, Mr. Kestern. He
fought for my soul. He held me all one night, and a crucifix in my
hands, while Satan shook my body, my bed, the very room, but could not
prevail."
And silence drew in and sat between the three of them.
Paul broke it. He sighed. "Forgive me," he said, "but what is one to
believe? You explain one thing by an unknown force; why not so explain
this? And--I don't mean to be rude, Mr. Etheridge--I suppose we all
have a side to our character which, supposing it were for any reason
developed and released, might do terrible things."
The ex-Spiritualist bowed slightly. "You are quite right," he said
tranquilly. "That is one explanation. You can explain the Gospels and
the Incarnation and Lourdes and--and Spiritualism that way. Men even
explain man. If there were no explanation possible, there would be no
need of faith."
"But I haven't----" began Paul.
Father Vassall made a quick gesture. "'_Si scires donum Dei_,'" he
said. "Don't t-t-tempt God, Kestern."
Etheridge rose as if he had not heard. "Let us walk in the garden a
little," he said, "and breathe clean air."
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