Peradventure; or, The Silence of GodKeable, Robert
Religion
Peradventure; or, The Silence of God
Keable, Robert
Church of England -- Fiction; Religion -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Paul pulled himself together. "But, mother, father," he said, "this is
sheer madness. We are not living in the Middle Ages. This isn't
melodrama. I--I differ from you in religion, I know; I can't help it;
I must do what seems right to me. But surely, because of that----"
His father opened the study door. Broken and old, there was a certain
dignity now in his face. "Paul," he said, "we talk different tongues,
but nothing alters the fact that you have turned utterly from the
religion of your parents to serve another. 'As for me and my house, we
will serve the Lord.' You have no place here. Go now, lest we say in
our anger what ought not to be said."
Paul looked again heavily round the room. "You have said it already,"
he replied, and left the house.
(3)
Paul walked down the street like a man in a dream. Once he stopped,
turned, and walked a few paces back, telling himself that it could not
be true, that it was too theatrical to be true. But his father's face
rose before him as he went, and still more the terror of his mother's
tears. He recalled the history of a friend of his in training for the
Baptist ministry, who had decided he could not accept the doctrine of
the deity of Christ and had been cursed by his widowed mother and
turned into the street with eighteenpence in his pocket. Somehow it
had never seemed possible that it could happen to him. Yet, in the
throes of the Catholic stage of his soul's pilgrimage, it had been
plain enough that something of that sort would happen if he made his
submission to the Church. Once more, the horror of his parents' grief
as he had seen it when he knelt in Father Vassall's chapel gripped his
heart. And now, and now, suddenly, so ironically, so futilely, so
childishly, this thing had swept down upon him. He, Paul Kestern, had
been turned from his father's house. The thing was true.
Then, into the stream of his thoughts, drifted the memory of what had
been said of Edith Thornton. Of all the incredible happenings of an
incredible morning, that, perhaps, was ultimately one of the most
incredible. Edith a Catholic! He thought of her face under the
lamplight in Lambeth Court--oh, incredible! But one moment: he thought
of her prayer under the pines at Keswick, of her answer to his dilemma
after his return from Thurloe End. Gradually he began to piece
together the mosaic of her simple reasoning, her resolute faith, her
ardent love; it was exactly of such souls that Catholic saints are
made. That, then, had been the inner meaning of her sorrow over his
going to Fordham and of her silence thereafter. This resolution, this
terrible domestic retribution, had come crashing down on her head, and
she, too, had been driven out alone.
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