“Oh, yes, that is always what I have thought when I have read the
American novelists’ attempts to portray what they call a ‘guilty love’.
The only word that expresses it delicately is _liaison_, and the
setting should be foreign as well. There is no background here. We are
still under the drab shadow of Puritanism. I have heard it estimated
that twenty-five thousand American women go abroad every year to
indulge in a fleeting _liaison_ that gives them courage to endure the
desperately material and commonplace life of this country for another
year. You don’t understand that because you never have been in Europe.
But Egypt--Italy--in Southern Europe anywhere--with its unbridled
beauties of nature and its far more poetic beauties that centuries of
art have given it--and a thousand years of love behind us--Oh, cannot
you imagine how wonderful love would be? Do you think _I_ should ever
want to come back?”
Gregory was staring at her. “Do you mean,” he stammered, “that you
would sacrifice your reputation openly--your future--do you care enough
for that?”
“I mean I love you so exclusively that I wish I had a thousand times
more to sacrifice.”
“But--but--there are always Americans travelling--and you know many
Europeans----”
“They are always easy to avoid. There are villas with walls, and pink
flowers on top of the walls. And we could travel and see the wonders of
art when the tourist season was over. Nor would I monopolise you. You
could have the society of men of brains and achievement everywhere.”
He continued to stare at her radiant wistful face. He had known that
she loved him, but it had never occurred to him that she would be
willing to give up the world for his sake. She was a proud woman, an
aristocrat, she had an exceptional position everywhere; the great world
when they parted stood ready to offer its consolations.
She had unrolled a heavenly vision! His mind had revolted from debasing
her to the status of what is euphemistically known in the West as
“sporting women”; he also remembered the immediate disillusionments
of his younger manhood and wondered if the hideousness of Butte had
been responsible. The Mediterranean with its ancient civilisations
flourishing and forgotten before the historic period, Egypt, full-grown
offspring of a still more ancient but vanished civilisation--both
called to that archæological instinct so closely allied to the
geological, made him fancy he heard faint ancestral voices. Ora’s
eyes were holding his, and her gaze was as powerful as his own. For
the moment he no longer was a son of the newest section of the newest
world. The turquoise waters of the Mediterranean spread before him, but
he saw it alive with galleys----
He jerked his eyes away, folded his arms and stared downward. He must
think rationally, not with vapours in his brain. It might be that he
would be more than fool to sacrifice to any consideration the one
chance for happiness in perfect union that life would offer him.
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