Whalen, abnormal in vanity and conceit though he was, took no
offence; not only was this in his estimation the one great lady of
the Western annex, but he was startled by the expression in her fixed
eyes of anguish, terror, and surprise. He had seen Gregory Compton go
down into his mine not a half an hour ago, and it was easy for his
fictionised if unimaginative mind to conjure up a hazy picture of the
scene underground. He turned very red, partly from gratification at
being so close to human passion and pain, but more from the knowledge
that he shortly could offer all the elements for another and a still
more dramatic crisis. At the same time he could do the one woman he
admired in this wilderness a good turn and heal his cankerous ache for
vengeance.
Ora went on to her little house and sank into a chair before the
burnt-out logs. Her body felt as if it were a vessel into which
had been poured all the waters of woman’s bitterness and despair.
Nevertheless, her predominant sensation was astonishment. For a year
she had lived in a fool’s paradise, indissolubly mated with Gregory
Compton. It was only in the moment when the idea of his own divorce
flashed into her mind that she realised she had meant to have him for
ever, that her imagination had been a mere playground on which she had
romped, and abruptly abandoned when she saw reality standing at the
gate.
Since that day, interrupted only by the fevers and doubts of love,
she had accepted with joy her predestined fate as the visible mate
of Gregory Compton. Else what did it all mean? She had counted
on marriage, but that respectable solution had faded into utter
insignificance as soon as the shock of Ida’s refusal had passed. To
fling the world aside, to regard it as a mere whirling speck in the
void, followed as a matter of course. She and this man would fill all
space.
And she had lost. It was over. _Over. Over._ For a time the
astonishment consequent upon the mental reiteration of this fact held
her. Her mind, quick, alert, sinuous as she had always found it, was
unable to readjust itself. How could anything be over that manifestly
had been created to go on for ever? What, then, did it all mean: that
mutual recognition when they had sat together that night in Butte,
that long mental obsession, this later perfect understanding, this
indubitable power to find in each other complete happiness? Over. And
by the man’s decree. How odd. How odd. And what a tragic waste.
She knew that the mine had pulled him, but she was too much the woman
to take a mine seriously. There had been some other reason. He loved
her; she never doubted that. He had resisted--why? She groped back
through her limited experience, wondering if the trouble were that
she had had so little. Life had not begun with her until a year ago.
She had been a mere student, deliberately living in the unreal, often
deluding, world of books, the worst of all preparations for life.
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