“Exposure be sugared. He was picked up the same day. . . . By the way,
has he ever spoken to you about consumption?”
“Yes. Twice. He said the children ought to sleep in the open air.”
“Consumption is one of the particular fears he can’t quite control.
That, I’m certain of. I wonder what his other fears are—or aren’t.”
For all her anxiety, Patricia could not restrain a feeling of relief.
One thing at least, her father’s explanation had taught her: that she
might still win her husband’s love—“even if he is a coward,” she said
aloud.
“A coward!”—Heron Baynet snapped at the word as he had snapped at the
suggestion of madness. “A coward! Were you afraid before Primula was
born?”
“A little,” she confessed.
“Well, multiply that fear by infinity—and you will have some idea of
what Peter is going through. And remember, you _knew_; he knows nothing,
except that he is afraid, and that to be afraid is to be”—Heron Baynet
hesitated over the word—“caddish.”
Silently, they began to retrace their steps homewards. Already, light
was failing among the trees. It seemed to Patricia that she walked in
cold shadows—helpless.
“Can nothing be done?” she said at last.
“Without his willingness to be treated—nothing.”
“Will he have to go back to the front in March?”
For the first time that afternoon, her father laughed. “Not if I know
anything about Medical Boards, Pat. He wouldn’t last ten days.” The
doctor grew serious. “But that doesn’t help us much. The damage to his
mind has got to be repaired somehow. _You_ might start the process; I
can’t.”
“I?” The monosyllable carried infinite query.
“Yes. You, and you only. Get his confidence; make him tell you—under
pledge of secrecy—why he carries that gun; why he’s afraid of
consumption for the children. Make him talk to you about the day he was
wounded—about the horrors he’s seen.”
“Can’t you talk to him, pater? He never opens his mouth about that sort
of thing to me.”—Her voice faltered.—“We’re not such good friends as
we used to be, pater.”
Heron Baynet’s voice did not falter. “I know you’re not, Pat. But you’ve
got to be. These repressions are killing Peter. Unless somebody can
break them down, I won’t be answerable for the consequences. It’s no use
my talking to him, he’d freeze up at once. Whereas you, you’re his
wife.”
“But, Pater. . . .”
“Damn it, girl,”—the doctor’s voice rose to fury—“can’t you see that
this is a matter of life or death. You _must_ make him talk. Make him
drunk if you like—get drunk yourself—make love to him as if you were
his mistress: but for God’s sake, make him talk.”
Patricia blushed scarlet; quickened her pace.
“And then?” she asked.
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