ONCE, when I was shedding bitter tears, when my hope streamed away
dissolved in sorrow, and I stood alone beside the barren hill, that
concealed in narrow gloomy space the form of my existence—alone, as never
solitary yet hath been, urged by an agony beyond expression, powerless,
no more than a mere thought of sorrow; as I looked around me there for
aid, could not advance, could not retire, and hung with incessant longing
upon fleeting, failing life;—then came there from the blue distance, from
the heights of my former happiness, a thin veil of the twilight gloom,
and in a moment burst the bondage of the fetters of the birth of light.
Then fled the glories of the earth, and all my sorrow with them; sadness
melted away in a new, an unfathomable world; thou, inspiration of the
Night, slumber of heaven, camest over me; the spot whereon I stood rose
insensibly on high; above the spot soared forth my released and new-born
spirit. The hill became a cloud of dust; through the cloud I beheld the
revealed features of my beloved one. In her eyes eternity reposed; I
grasped her hands, and my tears formed a glittering, inseparable bond.
Ages were swept by like storms into the distance; on her neck I wept
tears of ecstasy for life renewed. It was my first, my only dream; and
from that time I feel an eternal and unchanging faith in the heaven of
the Night, and in its light, the Loved One.
IV.
NOW do I know when the last morn will be; when the light shall no more
give alarm to the night and to love; when the slumber shall be without
end, and there shall be but one exhaustless dream. Heavenly weariness do
I feel within me. Long and wearisome had become the pilgrimage to the
holy grave—the cross a burthen. He who hath tasted of the crystal wave
that gushes forth, unknown to common eye, in the dark bosom of that hill,
against whose foot the flood of earthly waves is dashed and broken; he
who hath stood upon the summit of the world’s mountain bounds, and hath
looked beyond them down into that new land, into the abode of Night; he,
well I ween, turns not back into the turmoil of the world—into the land
where the light, and eternal unrest, dwells.
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