Phantastes: A Faerie Romance for Men and WomenMacDonald, George
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Phantastes: A Faerie Romance for Men and Women
MacDonald, George
Fantasy fiction
“Ah!” she replied, “how can I help it? He woke me from worse than
death; he loved me. I had never been for thee, if he had not sought me
first. But I love him not as I love thee. He was but the moon of my
night; thou art the sun of my day, O beloved.”
“Thou art right,” returned the noble man. “It were hard, indeed, not to
have some love in return for such a gift as he hath given thee. I, too,
owe him more than words can speak.”
Humbled before them, with an aching and desolate heart, I yet could not
restrain my words:
“Let me, then, be the moon of thy night still, O woman! And when thy
day is beclouded, as the fairest days will be, let some song of mine
comfort thee, as an old, withered, half-forgotten thing, that belongs
to an ancient mournful hour of uncompleted birth, which yet was
beautiful in its time.”
They sat silent, and I almost thought they were listening. The colour
of the lady’s eyes grew deeper and deeper; the slow tears grew, and
filled them, and overflowed. They rose, and passed, hand in hand, close
to where I stood; and each looked towards me in passing. Then they
disappeared through a door which closed behind them; but, ere it
closed, I saw that the room into which it opened was a rich chamber,
hung with gorgeous arras. I stood with an ocean of sighs frozen in my
bosom. I could remain no longer. She was near me, and I could not see
her; near me in the arms of one loved better than I, and I would not
see her, and I would not be by her. But how to escape from the nearness
of the best beloved? I had not this time forgotten the mark; for the
fact that I could not enter the sphere of these living beings kept me
aware that, for me, I moved in a vision, while they moved in life. I
looked all about for the mark, but could see it nowhere; for I avoided
looking just where it was. There the dull red cipher glowed, on the
very door of their secret chamber. Struck with agony, I dashed it open,
and fell at the feet of the ancient woman, who still spun on, the whole
dissolved ocean of my sighs bursting from me in a storm of tearless
sobs. Whether I fainted or slept, I do not know; but, as I returned to
consciousness, before I seemed to have power to move, I heard the woman
singing, and could distinguish the words:
O light of dead and of dying days!
O Love! in thy glory go,
In a rosy mist and a moony maze,
O’er the pathless peaks of snow.
But what is left for the cold gray soul,
That moans like a wounded dove?
One wine is left in the broken bowl!—
‘Tis—_To love, and love and love_.
Now I could weep. When she saw me weeping, she sang:
Better to sit at the waters’ birth,
Than a sea of waves to win;
To live in the love that floweth forth,
Than the love that cometh in.
Be thy heart a well of love, my child,
Flowing, and free, and sure;
For a cistern of love, though undefiled,
Keeps not the spirit pure.
I rose from the earth, loving the white lady as I had never loved her
before.
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