Phases of an Inferior PlanetGlasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
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Phases of an Inferior Planet
Glasgow, Ellen Anderson Gholson
Fiction
"It has made me so happy," she said, "to feel that I can give something
beautiful to the service. It is the sincerest pleasure I have known for
years."
She left, and her place was taken by a young divinity student who had
been drawn from law to theology by the eloquence of Father Algarcife. He
had come to obtain the priest's advice upon a matter of principle, and
departed with a quickening of his religious tendencies.
Then came several women, entering with a great deal of rustling and no
evident object in view. Then a vestryman to talk over a point in
business; then the wife of a well-known politician, to ask if she should
consent to her husband's accepting a foreign appointment; then a man who
wished to be confirmed in his church; and, after all, Mrs. Ryder, large
and warm and white, to say that since the last communion she had felt
herself stronger to contend with disappointment.
When it was over and he came out into the evening light, he drew himself
together with a quick movement, as if he had knelt in a strained
position for hours. Vaguely he wondered how his nerves had sustained it,
and he smiled half bitterly as he admitted that eight years ago he would
have succumbed.
"It is because my nerves are dead," he said; "as dead as my emotions."
He knew that since the pressure of feeling had been lifted the things
which would have overwhelmed him in the past had lost the power to
thrill his supine sensations, that from a mere jangled structure of
nerve wires he had become a physical being--a creature who ate and drank
and slept, but did not feel.
He went about his daily life as methodically as if it were mapped out
for him by a larger hand. His very sermons came to him with no effort of
will or of memory, but as thoughts long thought out and forgotten
sometimes obtrude themselves upon the mind that has passed into other
channels. They were but twisted and matured phrases germinating since
his college days. The old fatal facility for words remained with him,
though the words had ceased to be symbols of honest thought. He could
still speak, it was only the ability to think that the fever had
drained--it was only the power to plod with mental patience in the
pursuit of a single fact. Otherwise he was unchanged. But as every
sensation is succeeded by a partial incapacity, so the strain of years
had been followed by years of stagnation.
He went home to dinner with a physical zest.
"I believe I have one sentiment remaining," he said, "the last a man
loses--the sentiment for food."
* * * * *
The next evening, which chanced to be that of Election Day, Dr. Salvers
came to dine with him, and when dinner was over they went out to
ascertain the returns. Salvers had entered the fight with an
enthusiastic support of what he called "good government," and the other
watched it with the interest of a man who looks on.
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