Philochristus: Memoirs of a Disciple of the LordAbbott, Edwin Abbott
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Philochristus: Memoirs of a Disciple of the Lord
Abbott, Edwin Abbott
Christian fiction; Jesus Christ -- Fiction
When I came to myself, behold, I lay upon my back and looked upward, and
the moon was shining high in the heavens above me. So I thought how the
same moon had shone down with the same brightness yesternight upon my
Master in Gethsemane. “And now where is he?” I ceased from that thought,
and went back in my mind to thoughts of the past. Then I remembered what a
splendour, even such as I now saw, had shone upon our Master’s face when
he came down from Mount Hermon, and when he came up from Jericho to
Bethany, and also when of late he gave us the bread and wine at our last
supper together. Also there came into my mind the words that he had
spoken, when this brightness had been upon his countenance: how he had
then prophesied, and more than once, that he should be slain; but we had
never believed him. Yet his words had come to pass. Then I asked within
myself how it was that Jesus had foreseen his own death and prophesied it
so oft, yet had never been dismayed nor even disturbed by the thought
thereof; and I remembered that whensoever he had spoken of his death, he
had spoken also of a certain rising again, or coming: and I said aloud,
“If Jesus prophesied his death truly, why might he not also prophesy truly
concerning his coming again?”
But against this hope there set themselves those last words which had come
from the mouth of Jesus on the cross, “My God, my God, why hast thou
forsaken me?” Now these words are the first words, and as it were the
prelude, of one of our psalms. So I began to repeat to myself the words of
the psalm; which beginneth with sadness, yea even from the depths of
sorrow, but these words follow afterwards: “I will declare thy name unto
my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I praise thee. For he
hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the afflicted; neither
hath he hid his face from him, but when he cried unto him he heard.” So I
wondered whether Jesus, in speaking those last words, had in his mind all
the words of the psalm, and “Perchance,” I said, “in saying the first
words, he signified (in his sore weakness when the breath was departing
from him) that he desired to say the whole; for the first words are but as
a title to the whole. Wherefore, perchance, beneath the sense of the
forsaking, there was a deeper sense that God did not despise the
affliction of the afflicted.” Then I mused again concerning the words of
the Psalm, and especially on these, “When he cried unto him, he heard.”
And I looked up to the moon and the stars in heaven, which are the work of
the hand of God, and I asked whether it was possible that the Maker of so
beautiful an order in heaven should suffer disorder to prevail upon the
earth; and my heart said that it could not prevail for ever. “Therefore,”
said I, “God must needs have heard Jesus of Nazareth when he cried unto
Him. Yea, though He seemed not to hear, yet must He have heard indeed.
Yea, even though Jesus be dead, yea, even though Jesus be not the Messiah,
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