Pictures and Problems from London Police CourtsHolmes, Thomas
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Pictures and Problems from London Police Courts
Holmes, Thomas
Crime -- England -- London; Poor -- England -- London
His high cheek-bones, his hollow cheeks, and emaciated body and limbs
told me that not much longer would he gasp for air in that unclean
street, or lie waiting for death in his very, very small room. ‘You
are very ill,’ I said, and he nodded his head. ‘What is the matter?’
‘Consumption, but it is nearly all over.’ ‘Would you not be more
comfortable in a hospital?’ ‘I have been in the Chest Hospital, but
there is no hope.’ On further inquiry, I found that he was a single
man, had no relations who knew or cared about him, and that he had
come from the hospital to live with strangers, hoping that his time
would be short. ‘But how do you manage to live?’ I asked. ‘Ah, sir,’
he said, ‘it is a race, and I don’t know which will be gone first--my
money or my life. I knew years ago what was the matter with me, and I
have been very careful and saving, and I did hope that I should leave
enough to pay for my funeral.’ I got him some cooling drink, and told
him that I would call and see him the following Tuesday, when I should
again be in his neighbourhood.
I called on the appointed day, but his chair was not at the door, for
he lay in his little room. When I went in he gave me his poor thin
hand, saying: ‘I am glad you have come.’ I told him that if it gave
him the least pleasure I would call every Tuesday afternoon. He looked
at me and said: ‘I am glad, because you have kept your word.’ There
was sad suggestiveness and deep pathos in his words and look. I had no
need to inquire what he meant, for they told of promises lightly made
and wickedly forgotten, of hopes raised never to be realized. After
sponging his forehead with a little toilet vinegar, and putting a
handful of flowers where he could fondle them, and a little fruit where
he could reach it, I left him. Week by week I called upon him as he lay
there waiting for the end in his stuffy little room. All the night long
he lay alone, a very small, evil-smelling lamp for his companion; but
night brought no relief, no welcome coolness, and all the night long,
he told me, he lay and wished to God it were morning. But the morning
and the brightness of the sun brought no welcome change, so during
the day he lay and wished for the cool of the evening, for to sleep
he had become a stranger. One day I called, and he was in great pain;
he could not keep still, yet he had not strength to move. I wanted to
soothe him, but I did not know how, so I said to him: ‘How can I help
you?’ With his burning eyes he looked at me and said: ‘Ask God to let
me sleep--if I could, I might be easier--or die.’ I knelt down by his
bedside, and taking his poor hands into mine, I prayed that sleep
might come upon him; and then, silent and still, I knelt there hand in
hand with him for some minutes, and lo! ‘He gave His beloved sleep.’
Quietly withdrawing my hands, I left him peacefully sleeping, and took
my last look at him, for I never saw him again.
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