Autobiographical fiction; Domestic fiction; Male authors -- Fiction; Men -- Fiction; Psychological fiction
"I must ask pardon of you, Lucy, for so strangely absenting myself
last night. But you know me well enough to be very sure that I
would not have done so without important cause. I was in the street
approaching your cottage, when a message reached me, imperatively
calling me away. It is a matter which will take up all my time and
attention for, possibly, two or three days. I tell you this, now,
that you may be prepared for it. And I know that however unwelcome
this may be to you, you will yet bear with it for my sake; for,
indeed, and indeed, Lucy dear, I would not dream of staying from
you so long, unless irresistibly coerced to it. Do not come to the
mansion until I come to you; and do not manifest any curiosity or
anxiety about me, should you chance in the interval to see my
mother in any other place. Keep just as cheerful as if I were by
you all the time. Do this, now, I conjure you; and so farewell!"
He folded the note, and was about sealing it, when he hesitated a
moment, and instantly unfolding it, read it to himself. But he could not
adequately comprehend his own writing, for a sudden cloud came over him.
This passed; and taking his pen hurriedly again, he added the following
postscript:
"Lucy, this note may seem mysterious; but if it shall, I did not
mean to make it so; nor do I know that I could have helped it. But
the only reason is this, Lucy: the matter which I have alluded to,
is of such a nature, that, for the present I stand virtually
pledged not to disclose it to any person but those more directly
involved in it. But where one can not reveal the thing itself, it
only makes it the more mysterious to write round it this way. So
merely know me entirely unmenaced in person, and eternally faithful
to you; and so be at rest till I see you."
Then sealing the note, and ringing the bell, he gave it in strict charge
to a servant, with directions to deliver it at the earliest practicable
moment, and not wait for any answer. But as the messenger was departing
the chamber, he called him back, and taking the sealed note again, and
hollowing it in his hand, scrawled inside of it in pencil the following
words: "Don't write me; don't inquire for me;" and then returned it to
the man, who quitted him, leaving Pierre rooted in thought in the middle
of the room.
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