Jim had concealed a quart bottle of wine in his pocket and, as he rode
away on his mission, stopped from time to time to take a hearty drink.
As his horse trotted along lanes and through fields, the horse that was
bringing Clara and Hugh home from their adventure cocked his ears and
remembered the comfortable stall filled with hay in the Butterworth
barn. The horse trotted swiftly along and Hugh in the buggy beside Clara
was lost in the same dense silence that all the evening had lain over
him like a cloak. In a dim way he was resentful and felt that time was
running too fast. The hours and the passing events were like the waters
of a river in flood time, and he was like a man in a boat without oars,
being carried helplessly forward. Occasionally he thought courage had
come to him and he half turned toward Clara and opened his mouth, hoping
words would come to his lips, but the silence that had taken hold of
him was like a disease whose grip on its victim could not be broken. He
closed his mouth and wet his lips with his tongue. Clara saw him do the
thing several times. He began to seem animal-like and ugly to her. “It's
not true that I thought of her and asked her to be my wife only because
I wanted a woman,” Hugh reassured himself. “I've been lonely, all my
life I've been lonely. I want to find my way into some one's heart, and
she is the one.”
Clara also remained silent. She was angry. “If he didn't want to marry
me, why did he ask me? Why did he come?” she asked herself. “Well, I'm
married. I've done the thing we women are always thinking about,” she
told herself, her mind taking another turn. The thought frightened
her and a shiver of dread ran over her body. Then her mind went to the
defense of Hugh. “It isn't his fault. I shouldn't have rushed things as
I have. Perhaps I'm not meant for marriage at all,” she thought.
The ride homeward dragged on indefinitely. The clouds were blown out
of the sky, the moon came out and the stars looked down on the two
perplexed people. To relieve the feeling of tenseness that had taken
hold of her Clara's mind resorted to a trick. Her eyes sought out a tree
or the lights of a farmhouse far ahead and she tried to count the
hoof beats of the horse until they had come to it. She wanted to hurry
homeward and at the same time looked forward with dread to the night
alone in the dark farmhouse with Hugh. Not once during the homeward
drive did she take the whip out of its socket or speak to the horse.
When at last the horse trotted eagerly across the crest of the hill,
from which there was such a magnificent view of the country below,
neither Clara nor Hugh turned to look. With bowed heads they rode, each
trying to find courage to face the possibilities of the night.
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