Hugh tried to cling to that thought, but it would not stay in his mind.
All the thoughts that gave his mind peace and quiet flew away like birds
seen on a distant horizon at evening. It had been so ever since that
night when he was suddenly and unexpectedly attacked by the crazed
harness maker in the motor. Before that his mind had often been
unsettled, but he knew what he wanted. He wanted men and women and close
association with men and women. Often his problem was yet more simple.
He wanted a woman, one who would love him and lie close to him at night.
He wanted the respect of his fellows in the town where he had come to
live his life. He wanted to succeed at the particular task to which he
had set his hand.
The attack made upon him by the insane harness maker had at first
seemed to settle all his problems. At the moment when the frightened and
desperate man sank his teeth and fingers into Hugh's neck, something had
happened to Clara. It was Clara who, with a strength and quickness quite
amazing, had torn the insane man away. All through that evening she had
been hating her husband and father, and then suddenly she loved Hugh.
The seeds of a child were already alive in her, and when the body of her
man was furiously attacked, he became also her child. Swiftly, like
the passing of a shadow over the surface of a river on a windy day, the
change in her attitude toward her husband took place. All that evening
she had been hating the new age she had thought so perfectly personified
in the two men, who talked of the making of machines while the beauty
of the night was whirled away into the darkness with the cloud of dust
thrown into the air by the flying motor. She had been hating Hugh
and sympathizing with the dead past he and other men like him were
destroying, the past that was represented by the figure of the old
harness maker who wanted to do his work by hand in the old way, by the
man who had aroused the scorn and derision of her father.
And then the past rose up to strike. It struck with claws and teeth, and
the claws and teeth sank into Hugh's flesh, into the flesh of the man
whose seed was already alive within her.
At that moment the woman who had been a thinker stopped thinking. Within
her arose the mother, fierce, indomitable, strong with the strength of
the roots of a tree. To her then and forever after Hugh was no hero,
remaking the world, but a perplexed boy hurt by life. He never again
escaped out of boyhood in her consciousness of him. With the strength
of a tigress she tore the crazed harness maker away from Hugh, and with
something of the surface brutality of another Ed Hall, threw him to
the floor of the car. When Ed and the policeman, assisted by several
bystanders, came running forward, she waited almost indifferently while
they forced the screaming and kicking man through the crowd and in at
the door of the police station.
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