The cuts on the upper part of his body were nothing--a little iodine
would heal them soon; it seemed that there had come to him no physical
harm--only an amazing all-invading weariness. It was not like any
weariness that he had ever before known. He imagined--he had had no
positive experience--that it resembled the conditions of some happy
doped trance, some dream-state in which the world was a vision and
oneself a disembodied spirit. It was as though his body, stricken with
an agony of weariness, was waiting for his descent, but his soul
remained high in air in a bell of crystal glass beyond whose surface the
colours of the world floated about him.
He left them all--the doctor, the policeman, Dunbar and Hesther. He did
not even stop at Jabez's cottage to inquire. That was for later. As
half-past seven struck from the church tower below the hill he flung the
gate behind him, crossed the road, and struck off on to the Downs above
the sea.
By a kind of second sight he knew exactly where he would go. There was a
path that crossed the Downs that ran slipping into a little cove, across
whose breast a stream trickled, then up on to the Downs again, pushing
up over fields of corn, past the cottage gardens up to the very gate of
the hotel.
It was all mapped in his mind in bright clear-painted colours.
The world was indeed as though it had only that morning been painted in
green and blue and gold. While the fog hung, under its canopy the
master-artist had been at work. Now from the shoulder of the Downs a
shimmer of mist tempered the splendour of the day. Harkness could see it
all. The long line of sea on whose blue surface three white sails
hovered, the bend of the Downs where it turned to deeper green, the dip
of the hill out of whose hollow the church spire like a spear
steel-tipped gesticulated, the rising hill with the wood and the tall
white tower, the green Downs far to the right where tiny sheep like
flowers quivered in the early morning haze.
All was peace. The rustling whisper of the sea, the breeze moving
through the taller grasses, the hum of tiny insects, a lark singing, two
dogs barking in rivalry, a scent of herb and salt and fashioned soil,
all these things were peace.
Harkness moved a free man as he had never been in all his life as yet.
He was his own master and God's servant too. Life might be a dream--it
seemed to him that it was--but it was a dream with a meaning, and the
events of that night had given him the key.
His egotism was gone. He wanted nothing for himself any more. He was,
and would always be, himself, but also he had lost himself in the common
life of man. He was himself because his contact with beauty was his own.
Beauty belonged to all men in common, and it was through beauty that
they came to God, but each man found beauty in his own way, and, having
found it, joined his portion of it to the common stock.
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