He turned a corner and met again the Liddon bell. It was strange how
deeply this voice reassured him. He had been all alone in a world
utterly dead. He had not had, like Hardy's hero, the sight of the
crustacean to connect him with eternal life. But this sudden,
melancholy, lowing sound like a creature deserted, crying for its mate,
brought him once more into reality. The bell was insistent and very
loud. It swung through the fog up to him, ringing in his ear, then
fading away again into distance. He spoke aloud as men do when they are
in desperate straits: "Well, old bell," he cried, "I'm not beaten yet,
you see. They've done what they can to finish me, but I'm back again.
You don't get rid of me so easily as that, you know. You can come and
look, if you like. Here I am, company for you after all."
There was a little breeze blowing now in his eyes and this cheered him.
If only the wind rose the fog would move and all might yet be well. His
clothes were torn, his hands bleeding, his hat gone. He crawled into a
sitting position, shook his fist in the air, and cried:
"You old devil, you're there, are you! It's your game all this. You're
seeing whether you can finish me. But I'll be even with you yet." And it
did indeed seem to him that he could see through the mist that red head
sticking out like a furze bush on fire. The hair, the damp pale face,
the melancholy eyes, and then the voice:
"It's only a theory, of course, Mr. Harkness. My father, who was a most
remarkable man. . . ."
The thought of Crispin enraged him, and the rage drove him on to his
feet. He was standing up and moving forward quite briskly. He moved like
a blind man, his hands before him as though he were expecting at every
moment to strike some hard, sharp substance, but whereas before the fog
had seemed to envelope him, strangling him, penetrating into his very
heart and vitals, now it retreated from before him like a moving wall.
The incline was now less sharp, and now less sharp again. Little pebbles
rolled from beneath his feet, and he could hear them fall over down into
distant space, but he had no longer any fear. He was on level ground. He
knew that the down was spreading about him. He called out, "Hesther!
Hesther!" not realising that this was the first time he had spoken her
name. He called it again, "Hesther! Hesther!" and again and again,
always moving as he fancied forward.
Then, as though it had been hurled at him out of some gigantic distance,
the rugged wall of the cottage pierced the sky. He saw it, then herself
patiently seated beneath it. In another moment he was kneeling beside
her, both her hands in his, his voice murmuring unintelligible words.
VI
She was so happy to see him. His face was close to hers and for the
first time he could really see her, her large, grave, questioning eyes,
her child's face, half developed, nothing very beautiful in her
features, but to him something inexpressibly lovely for which all his
life he had been waiting.
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