Grace had of late reflected more seriously on the subject of her eternal
welfare than she had been accustomed to do in the house of her mother;
and the example of Emily, with the precepts of Mrs. Wilson, had not been
thrown away upon her. It is a singular fact, that more women feel a
disposition to religion soon after marriage than at any other period of
life; and whether it is, that having attained the most important station
this life affords the sex, they are more willing to turn their thoughts
to a provision for the next, or whether it be owing to any other cause,
Mrs. Moseley was included in the number. She became sensibly touched
with her situation, and as Harland was both devout and able as well as
anxious to instruct, one of the party, at least, had cause to rejoice in
the journey for the remainder of her days. But precisely as Grace
increased in her own faith, so did her anxiety after the welfare of her
husband receive new excitement; and John, for the first time, became the
cause of sorrow to his affectionate companion.
The deep interest Harland took in the opening conviction of Mrs.
Moseley, did not so entirely engross his thoughts as to prevent the too
frequent contemplation of the charms of her friend for his own peace of
mind; and by the time the vessel reached Falmouth, he had determined to
make a tender of his hand and title to the acceptance of Miss Moseley.
Jane did not love Egerton; on the contrary, she despised him; but the
time had been, when all her romantic feelings, every thought of her
brilliant imagination, had been filled with his image, and Jane felt it
a species of indelicacy to admit the impression of another so soon, or
even at all. These objections would, in time, have been overcome, as her
affections became more and more enlisted on behalf of Harland, had she
admitted his addresses; but there was an impediment that Jane considered
insurmountable to a union with any man.
She had once communicated her passion to its object. There had been the
confidence of approved love; and she had now no heart for Harland, but
one that had avowedly been a slave to another. To conceal this from him
would be unjust, and not reconcilable to good faith; to confess it,
humiliating, and without the pale of probability. It was the misfortune
of Jane to keep the world too constantly before her, and to lose sight
too much of her really depraved nature, to relish the idea of humbling
herself so low in the opinion of a fellow-creature. The refusal of
Harland's offer was the consequence, although she had begun to feel an
esteem for him, that would no doubt have given rise to an attachment in
time, far stronger and more deeply seated than her passing fancy for
Colonel Egerton had been.
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