His loneliness now weighed heavily upon Andras. His nerves were shaken
by the memories which the czardas of the Tzigani musicians had evoked;
and it seemed to him that the place was deserted now that they had
departed, and Varhely had gone with them. In the eternal symphony of
the sea, the lapping of the waves upon the shingle at the foot of the
terrace, one note was now lacking, the resonant note of the czimbalom
yonder in the gardens of Frascati. The vibration of the czimbalom
was like a call summoning up the image of Marsa, and this image took
invincible possession of the Prince, who, with a sort of sorrowful anger
which he regarded as hatred, tried in vain to drive it away.
What was the use of remaining at Sainte-Adresse, when the memories
he sought to flee came to find him there, and since Marsa’s presence
haunted it as if she had lived there by his side?
He quitted Havre, and returned to Paris; but the very evening of his
return, in the bustle and movement of the Champs-Elysees, the long
avenue dotted with lights, the flaming gas-jets of the cafe concerts,
the bursts of music, he found again, as if the Tzigana were continually
pursuing him, the same phantom; despite the noise of people and
carriages upon the asphalt, the echoes of the “Song of Plevna,” played
quite near him by some Hungarian orchestra, reached him as upon the
seashore at Havre; and he hastened back to his hotel, to shut himself
up, to hear nothing, see nothing, and escape from the fantastic,
haunting pursuit of this inevitable vision.
He could not sleep; fever burned in his blood. He rose, and tried to
read; but before the printed page he saw continually Marsa Laszlo, like
the spectre of his happiness.
“How cowardly human nature is!” he exclaimed, hurling away the book. “Is
it possible that I love her still? Shall I love her forever?”
And he felt intense self-contempt at the temptation which took
possession of him to see once more Maisons-Lafitte, where he had
experienced the most terrible grief of his life. What was the use of
struggling? He had not forgotten, and he never could forget.
If he had been sincere with himself, he would have confessed that he was
impelled by his ever-living, ever-present love toward everything which
would recall Marsa to him, and that a violent, almost superhuman effort
was necessary not to yield to the temptation.
About a week after the Prince’s return to Paris, his valet appeared
one day with the card of General Vogotzine. It was on Andras’s lips to
refuse to see him; but, in reality, the General’s visit caused him a
delight which he would not acknowledge to himself. He was about to hear
of hey. He told the valet to admit Vogotzine, hypocritically saying to
himself that it was impossible, discourteous, not to receive him.
The old Russian entered, timid and embarrassed, and was not much
reassured by Zilah’s polite but cold greeting.
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