‘You are not without ambition,’ pursued Sebastian, fixing his eyes upon
Myles with conviction, and noting the answering flush in his face,
though his eyes remained downcast. ‘No man who is worth anything is
without ambition. If you would let me, I could put you into the way
of furthering your ambition. Of course it would be a struggle; but
then you are one of the right kind to struggle--you like it. A few
years’ absence from England, a few years’ hard work in a post for which
you would be well suited, and you might return here, if you liked, a
different man, in a different position, able to do and get pretty much
what you liked. Remember, to a man of courage, who has made a mark,
_most things that he wishes for stand open_. Is this nothing to you? Do
you prefer remaining shut up in Thanshope, with your own prospects, and
the prospects of your fellow-workmen no better than they are? I cannot
believe it of you.’
Almost unconsciously, Sebastian had half-cast aside the mask of
indifference, and was speaking nearly as eagerly as he felt. He had
stepped up to Myles, and laid his hand upon his arm. Their eyes met.
Myles’s very soul had been stirred by the words he had heard.
They had touched the very well-spring of his present wishes and
desires, the longing which had grown and intensified with his love
and his sense of its utter hopelessness. To leave this place--go away
to some other spot, where there would be scope for hard work, mental
and bodily--work that would absorb his energies. There was nothing
he desired more than such work. His enforced idleness was absolutely
hideous to him. Out of England, he might advance, rise; Sebastian, he
knew, was not wont to speak rashly or unadvisedly on such matters,
but was given to measuring his words. He might return an altered
man, well off, perhaps, or at least with the means of becoming well
off; why, he might (it all seemed to flash in a second through his
mind)--he might go at last, and seek Adrienne--and find her gone, hear
that she was Sebastian Mallory’s wife. And _then_ the acceptance of
Sebastian Mallory’s assistance would have caused his last state to be
worse than his first. He would have stooped, not to conquer, but to
be forestalled, defeated, humiliated, and all the riches, and all the
position that the world could give, would not restore his hopes and his
lost self-respect. With a short sardonic, miserable laugh, he jerked
his arm from Sebastian’s hand, and said almost angrily,
‘It is of no use. You will never persuade me to that. It is wasted
breath to try it.’
Sebastian felt an absolute thrill of vexation and mortification; a
thrill so strong as to surprise himself.
‘What makes you so obstinate?’ he unwarily exclaimed. ‘Is it some
personal reason?’
‘Yes,’ answered Myles, looking him directly in the eyes; ‘it is!’
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