‘Mr. Mallory!’ he echoed drearily. ‘Adrienne, I see what you are going
to say, but think again! I must have been a terrible, conceited fool
all this time; but will you not think again? Wait till to-morrow. Don’t
speak to-day. Let me explain.’
Adrienne’s face was full of pain as she said, tremulously but
decisively,
‘No. It would be wrong. I know what I feel, and must always feel, now.
I admire you very much; I respect you, oh, more than I can tell you. I
have a sort of affection for you. Indeed, I am very fond of you. You
were so good to me,’ said Adrienne, with tears swimming in her eyes;
‘but I cannot marry you.... Oh, do not look like that!’ she exclaimed,
in an agony, ‘I am so sorry; I am so sorry.’
‘Are you quite certain?’ he asked in a low voice. ‘Have I all along
been so utterly indifferent to the woman I----’
‘Not indifferent. You were never indifferent to me. And once----’
‘Once!’ he echoed eagerly.
‘I thought--I believed----’
‘That you could love me--perhaps that you did love me?’
She bowed.
‘Ah, that was when I was away. But why should you not love me now,
dearest? If you would only let me show you how I love you--you
must--you could not help--so good and so loving as you are.’
‘No, no! Do not speak to me of it. _It can never be._ I know my own
heart now--too well,’ she said, looking at him almost appealingly, and
with distracted, troubled eyes.
‘And there is no love in it for me?’
‘Not that kind of love. Oh, heavens! why must I have such things to
say to _you_! You must know that you ought to have a very different
kind of wife from me. Your wife should be rich and beautiful, and quite
different. You will see it yourself some day, when you meet a woman
worthy of you, who will love you as you deserve to be loved.’
‘That is cold comfort when the woman I worship won’t have me. I cannot
make you love me.’
‘Only because another man has all the love I have to give,’ said
Adrienne, scarcely audibly, as she turned aside her face.
Sebastian stood still for a moment.
‘Forgive me!’ said he; ‘it is hopeless, I see. I will never speak to
you of it again.’
‘Forgive _me_!’ she said, much moved. ‘I ought--no, I could not tell
you. I have been distracted.... I----’
‘Do not reproach yourself,’ said he, chivalrously. ‘I understand. After
this’ (they had begun to move towards the farther gate of the park,
along the broad terrace where the man was sitting on the seat in the
trees)--‘after this I have not another word to say. We shall have to
meet as before, Adrienne. May I call you Adrienne sometimes?’
‘Always, if you like.’
‘Will you try to overlook this--to treat me as if I had not annoyed you
thus?’
‘Annoyed me--_you_! Oh, how can you ask?’
‘And then slander will be silenced, and then there will be no more
misunderstandings. All will be clear between us.’
The tenderness he felt he could not banish from his voice, and hers
trembled as she answered.
‘Quite clear--as it should be.’
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