They left the room. Harry departed by the back way to have a word with
Mary, and to offer to come and sit up that night with Edmund, who was
much worse. The offer was accepted, and Harry went away.
The midday meal was again a very sad one. Myles ate nothing, and said
nothing; and Mary, full of fears and forebodings, was almost as bad.
After dinner the young man went out again--up the street he hated, to
the room which had become a purgatory to him. How he loathed the sight
of that long building with the many windows and the well-known faces!
It seemed to him as if every eye must be fixed upon him, every finger
pointing at him.
Work was not over until late that afternoon. It was six o’clock, or
after, when Myles got home again, and on going into the house found
that Mary was sitting upstairs with Edmund; so, after brooding a
little, his mind full of wild, half-chaotic projects and ideas, he
left the house and wandered out, he knew not whither. At last he found
himself in the park, pacing about the broad terrace, and looking with
eyes that saw nothing, across the idle town and the nearer hills, to
the blue, calm, moorland ridges far away to the north. It was a scene
he had loved, half unconsciously, from his childhood up, but to-day it
was without joy--almost without existence for him.
At last he seated himself on a bench situated in a kind of rockery
which ran along one side of the terrace; the seat was a little retired
in a hollow of the rockwork, and there he remained, and gradually he
turned his back upon the prospect and his face to the wall, and hid
his face in his arm and fought alone, as well as he could, with the
misery and despair which rushed over him like a flood. He saw no point
of cheerfulness or light in all his life’s sky. All was black and thick
and overcast.
‘This is no fit place for me to stay in,’ he thought. ‘I must get away
as soon as I can. If I go, all the lies will die out quickly enough,
and then--there’s another man who is ready to fight her battles for
her, and he may see her as much as he pleases, and there’s no harm in
it.’
How long he had remained there motionless and miserable he did not
know. He had forgotten all outside things, and was busied solely with
his wretched self-introspection. At last, however, distant voices
first, and then approaching footsteps, which advanced slowly and with
many pauses, penetrated to his abstracted ear. He did not move; why
should any one notice him, or think of him? Still less did he move when
he distinctly heard and recognised Sebastian Mallory’s voice close to
him saying,
‘And then slander will be silenced, and there will be no more
misunderstandings. All will be clear between us.’
His voice was deep with love as he spoke, and to each vibration of it
Myles’s heart seemed to give an answering throb.
‘Quite clear, as it should be,’ replied the voice he loved best, and it
trembled too.
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