‘You surely cannot disapprove of that. My dear mother, you at one time
wished me to marry her. You told me so.’
‘You have the most extraordinary, perverted ideas of right and duty,
Sebastian. Can you suppose that I ever wished you to marry a girl whose
father committed suicide after behaving in a far from honourable way in
his business affairs, and whose brother absconded with a large sum of
money which he had stolen, and who is now--who knows where he is, or
what he is doing, or what trouble he may cause his relations even yet?’
Sebastian almost smiled at the utter opposition of his mother’s ideas
to his own. They never saw but one side each of the other’s nature--not
because neither had another side to show, but because of the formation
of their respective mental eyes. Yet, for the sake of appearances, he
must argue the matter out.
‘Suppose we had married at the time you wished it,’ he suggested.
‘These things would have happened all the same. As it is, they are now
nearly forgotten. No one with any feeling would wish to remind her of
them. If you could only see her, you would forget them all, in looking
at herself. She was always a beautiful girl, but now she is lovelier
than ever, and more charming.’
She was silent.
‘Will you not say you approve of this, mother! You know I will not seek
a wife with a fortune. If she had happened to have money, well and
good; but I would rather have her without, and with the beauty and the
love that Helena gives me.’
‘It is a mockery to ask me whether I approve of it. You will do it
whether I approve or not.’
‘But if you will approve--if you will hold out your hand to Helena, and
accept her as my wife, you will gratify me beyond measure. You know,
it is really your fault. You threw Helena in my way at first, and she
must have made a much deeper impression upon me than I knew, for a
few weeks ago, when I met her unexpectedly, I was scarcely master of
myself. It was all over with me from that moment.’
‘And suppose I do not approve?’
‘I should be unspeakably grieved. We are alone in the world, almost.
You are the very nearest relative a man can have; but you will agree,’
and he stooped and gently kissed her cheek.
She started. With that kiss seemed to come suddenly to her a great
revelation, the revelation of the love which she had thrust obstinately
away from her. She had received her son as a child, and had tried to
curb and control him; and when he acted as a man, she had enclosed
herself within a wall of icy reserve, and had repelled every advance he
had made. The truth rushed upon her mind now with overwhelming force.
She was a selfish, a profoundly selfish, woman; but somewhere, not
quite withered away within her, there lay the remains of a mother’s
heart.
‘I am your mother, Sebastian,’ she said, with a sudden tremor in her
voice. ‘It is very strange that we should have got on so badly since
you came home.... I have had no wish but for your prosperity and
well-being, and yet----’
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