Myles did not spend a long time over this meal. The table was soon
clear again, with the exception of the indispensable bottle of yellow
wine, and the accompanying green glass. He leaned his elbows upon the
table before him and stared dreamily forward across the garden, beyond
the groups of merry guests--young men and girls, and whole families,
with _Vater_ and _Mutter_ in full amplitude; he seemed to see none of
them. The band in the orchestra, fifty yards away, were playing soft
strains; the lamps twinkled with a mild, pleasant brightness; the trees
above them looked ink-black by contrast. The sky beyond was like a
vault of violet crystal, and the lamp-like stars beamed out mildly here
and there. The breeze rustled gently now and then, but it was a very
gentle breeze, with nothing of the storm in its breath. All around was
the hum of laughter and talk, and the murmur of flirtation; now and
then the clanking of spurs and the rattling of swords as the company
was reinforced ever and anon by fresh specimens of the inevitable
lieutenant; it was all very pleasant, very calm and peaceful. Myles,
somewhat languid after a long day’s business in the de-oxygenised
atmosphere of the offices and warehouses of a large town, felt, at the
moment, perfectly neutral; neither glad nor sorry, but content, so far
as he was anything, to sit still, with his arms on the table, taking an
occasional drink of his pleasant, if not strong, straw-coloured Neckar
wine, and listening to the whispers of the band, as one instrument
after another died away in the final bars of a little serenade of
Haydn’s. He would have been content to stay there for an indefinite
time, for Myles had arrived at that mental state in which a man finds
it easiest and pleasantest to go on doing the same thing. Whether the
thing were work or idlenesss was almost immaterial to him, when he had
once begun it. It was the effort of turning his attention from one
thing to another which brought mental pain and inconvenience. All day
he had wrought hard, and asked nothing better than to continue doing
so. So long as he could go on, he was almost at ease. But when the work
was over--when the offices were closed, and men had finished their
toil, and were going home to ‘play them’--to use an idiom of his own
native dialect--then it was that despondency seized him; then it was
that he felt a sudden blank, an emptiness, a sense of being lost and
unprovided for; then it was that the effort to find some other pastime,
something else with which to fill his thoughts, was a dull pang which
he dreaded continually. It was this feeling of desolation that kept him
sitting up till all hours of the night, with book and dictionary open
before him, studying or reading until his eyelids fell over his weary
eyes, and he could go upstairs, certain that he would fall asleep as
soon as he tumbled into bed. It was this which made him dread to awaken
in the night watches, or to lie awake with nothing to do; this that,
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