‘Fool that I was! But I have been paying the price of my folly for two
years without ceasing. Till seven months ago I believed you were going
to marry Sebastian Mallory. You may suppose I was anxious for nothing
so much as to be silent--to hear nothing of you.’
Adrienne made no answer, till Myles said,
‘And now you are going to leave Thanshope?’
‘Yes, for ever.’
‘You have come to say good-bye to the old place?’
‘I never meant to come. Brandon found some difficulties about the
arrangements I wished him to make, and telegraphed for me. I came this
afternoon, and am leaving again to-morrow morning.’
Adrienne had lost her self-command as he gained more of his. Her voice
shook uncontrollably, as she leaned her elbow on the top of the piano.
‘I shall always feel happy that I have been able to see you, to tell
you that, whether you forgave me or not, I have repented, and do
repent, my churlishness, and to thank you for your--your _unspeakable_
kindness to a rough, stupid, clumsy fellow like me,’ said he. ‘Your
great goodness and your gentle influence will go with me through my
life; and--may you never know a sorrow or a care as long as you live!’
The aspiration appeared useless, for Adrienne had buried her face in
her hands, and was weeping with a quiet sorrow that had something of
despair in it.
‘But before I go,’ he added, ‘will you answer me a question? Perhaps
I have no right to ask it, but I must, I have been listening to your
singing; I heard every word.’
‘Yes,’ was the almost inaudible answer.
‘Tell me if you had some one in your mind when you sang that song.’
‘Yes,’ said Adrienne, still scarce above her breath.
‘You had!’ he exclaimed, and forgot the solemn farewell, the almost
benediction, he had just bestowed upon her, while he hurried his words
out desperately. ‘Oh, Adrienne! forgive me if I am too presumptuous;
but have mercy! Tell me, when you sang ‘Du, du, liegst mir im
Herzen’.... But I am too bold--I----’
‘Do not look at me so strangely!’ she began, raising her tear-stained
face. ‘Tell me----Ah!’ she suddenly exclaimed, as with one movement
they clasped each other, ‘it is you, Myles--it was always you; but you
were so dreadfully proud.’
‘Do you mean,’ he asked, after a long pause, ‘that if I had come to you
that night--if I had forgotten myself, and told you, as I felt sure I
should, that I loved you, and that no “friendship” could be anything
but a wretched mockery to me--do you mean that _then_ you would have
taken me, ruined and wretched, and without one bright thought or one
hope for the future?’
‘If you had come then, and told me all that, you need not have gone
away without hope, and I should have spent a different two years than I
have done. But it is all right now,’ she added. ‘The probation is over,
my love, and you have borne it bravely.’
‘If you think so, it must be so; but at the time, I assure you, I felt
anything but brave. _Now_ I feel--I feel at rest,’ said Myles.
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