Problematic Characters: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Problematic Characters: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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Melitta said nothing, but the tear which suddenly glittered in her long
eyelashes, and which she quickly wiped away with a quiet gesture, was
answer enough.
"Pardon me, Melitta," whispered Oswald, "but I am very unhappy."
"I am not less so--perhaps more so--and that is exactly why I wish you
at least were happy, and I could make you so."
"You can do it by a word."
"What is that, Oswald?"
"Tell me that you love me."
"Oswald, love does not ask so; that is jealousy."
"Is there any love without jealousy?"
"Yes, true love, that feareth nothing and believeth all things."
"Then my love is not true love. To be sure, we, who are not noble,
cannot lay claim to anything that is true, I suppose; our mothers and
sisters wear glass instead of diamonds; we ourselves have no true
honor, no true love, that is clear." ... If Oswald could have looked
into Melitta's heart as he was uttering these mad words, if he had but
cast a glance at her face, he would have died for shame. Melitta did
not answer; she did not cry; she only looked fixedly before her, as if
she could not comprehend the fearful thing, that the hand which she had
stooped to kiss had slapped her face, that the foot which she had knelt
to wash with ointment had repelled her cruelly ... How she had looked
forward to this evening; how happy she had fancied she would be in the
midst of the crowd, alone with the beloved one, listening to his words,
stealthily pressing his hand, and while beautiful women are slyly
coquetting with him on all sides, to read in his eyes: I love only you,
Melitta! And beyond this evening she had looked into a rosy future--a
land of hope--not in clear outlines, but full of peace and love and
sunshine ... And then her past had come up like a gray venomous mist,
and had covered the promised land with its thick veil ... and now the
face of the beloved one looked to her, through the foul mist, as if it
were disfigured by hatred, and his voice sounded strange to her ears.
Was that his face? Was that his voice which now said: "Baroness, they
are rising from table: may I offer you my arm?"
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