Problematic Characters: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Problematic Characters: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
Fiction
"He is not unworthy, but--I am your friend, Melitta! He is not quite
worthy of you. He has many good and noble qualities, I know; but his
character has not been steeled in the thrice sacred fire of misfortune,
and thus he cannot appreciate good fortune. He is marvellously
susceptible for all that is beautiful and graceful, and so he adores
you; but this very susceptibility for all that is beautiful makes it
very difficult for him not to forget a fair and lovely object for the
sake of one that is fairer and lovelier. He cannot be constant. He is a
poet, and the poet's love is the ideal. He is capable of pushing aside
a precious jewel with contempt, if his sharp eye should notice the
smallest flaw; he seizes whatever the earth offers him with eagerness,
and casts it aside because it is of the earth; and even if it were
divine he would despise it if it had but a remnant of earthy matter
about it."
"You tell me only, Oldenburg, what I have told myself a hundred and a
thousand times."
"I know I do. You cannot find it difficult to understand such
characters, for they are akin to your own. But you are a woman, and
women do not go to the same extreme. You are, after all, willing to
submit at last, in spite of long resistance, and then you are proud of
your chains; man may boast of them for a time, as long as they are new,
but after a while he throws them aside. And so it will be here."
"No, no!"
"Yes, Melitta! It will be so, and--now I know what the dark storm-cloud
meant which I saw the other day hang over your head. You may be sure
the blow will fall upon you sooner or later, and when you are cast down
by its violence and do not wish to live any longer,--though you cannot
yet die,--then, Melitta, then you will perhaps be able to understand
what I suffer; then you will be sorry in your heart for the wrong you
have done me. Would to God you could be spared that awaking! The
penalty is so enormous! But, but--you will have to pay it. Farewell,
Melitta! Pardon me if I have pained you; it shall not happen again; it
is the first and the last time I have spoken thus to you. Farewell,
Melitta!--Melitta, have you not one kind word for me?"
Melitta had pressed her face into her hands; the twilight which reigned
in the room concealed all but the mere attitude of her form--she would
not or could not answer.
The baron held both his hands over her head.
"God help you, Melitta!" he said, and the voice of the proud, stern man
sounded soft and mild like a father's voice.
When Melitta heard the door close behind him, she started up from her
chair and stepped forward hurriedly. But halfway she paused.
"No, no!" she murmured; "it is better so; I must not leave him a ray of
hope."
She went slowly back to her chair. She sat down again and covered her
face once more with her hands. And now the long pent-up tears broke in
streams from her eyes. "I know it will come so," she murmured, "but why
must he cruelly break the short dream of my happiness?"
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