Problematic Characters: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Problematic Characters: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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As for Miss Helen, she went her quiet way, apparently looking neither
to the right nor the left, only she had become still more reserved in
her manner, and more sparing of her smiles. She also felt perfectly
well that she would have to stand alone in the struggle which was
impending; that she would appeal in vain to the heart of a cold,
selfish mother, the weak mind of an old father, or the courtesy of a
frivolous, reckless man like Felix, and that she would have to rely on
no one but herself. But this consciousness, which would have
overwhelmed any other girl of Helen's age, only served to rouse and to
inflame the courage of this high-hearted creature, in whom the whole
power of the family seemed to be concentrated, only in a nobler and
purer form. The reconciliation which had taken place between her and
her mother had only been apparent. Two persons are never more strongly
opposed to each other than when they aim at different ends, and yet are
equally well endowed with strength of will and powers of endurance.
There was no permanent union possible between the baroness, who knew
and pursued only worldly purposes, and her daughter, who followed an
ideal which might have been exaggerated, but was always lofty and pure.
Helen spoke freely of this in the letters, which she wrote more
frequently now than formerly, to her dearest and most intimate friend,
Miss Mary Burton. "Dearest Mary," she said in one of them, "how often
have you accused your fate, which loaded you with riches but robbed you
of all--parents, brothers and sisters, and even cousins--all those
friends of both sexes, which nature herself gives us for our way
through life! But, believe me, dear girl, there is a sadder fate than
yours. The melancholy you feel when you think of your loneliness in the
world has something sweet about it. How often have you spoken to me of
your brother Harry, whom you lost in the fall vigor of early youth, and
of your sister Hetty, who died a mere bud. You told me then that they
were not and could never be dead for you, because they lived brighter
and fairer in your memory. You said that the shades of the departed
were everywhere hovering around you, and that you felt far happier in
their society than among the cold, selfish men of this world. Oh,
surely life is not the first of earthly gifts, but love is. To live
without love is useless; love without life can still be sublime. Your
relatives are dead, but they live in you; my relatives live, but they
are dead for me. It is a sad word, darling Mary, but I will not blot it
out again, for it is true; and we have pledged each other to conceal
nothing, even though the confession be ever so painful. Yes, they are
dead for me, my relatives, and although I would give half of my life to
call them back to life, good wishes can do nothing here. Who lives for
us? Surely only those in whose hearts we can always find an asylum, to
protect us against every grief that oppresses us and against every
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