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"But if I abase and know myself to be nothing, if I renounce all
self-esteem and (as I am) account myself to be but dust; thy grace will
be favorable unto me, and thy light will be near unto my heart.
"And all self-esteem, how little soever, shall be swallowed up in the
deep valley of my nothingness, and perish everlastingly.
"There thou showest thyself unto me, what I am, what I have been, and
whither I am come; for I am nothing and I knew it not.
"And if I be left to myself, behold, I become nothing and all weakness.
"But if thou lookest upon me, I am made strong."
The light had entered the darkened soul. The Spirit used a few texts
of Scripture and the devout words of an old monk to teach him "that
all our righteousness is as filthy rags," and that "the blood of Jesus
Christ cleanseth us from all sin." The old miracle was repeated in
him. In silence and quiet the change went on. A proud, ambitious,
self-seeking man, learning to pray with that other saint:
"Grant me, O, most gracious and loving Jesus, to rest in thee above
all creatures:
"Above all health and beauty, above all glory and honor, above all
power and dignity, above all knowledge and subtlety, above all riches
and arts, above all joy and gladness, above all hope and promise, above
all desert and desire; above all gifts and presents that thou canst
give and impart unto us: above all joy and triumph that the mind of man
can receive and feel."
A year went away, and the stars of Christmas night glowed in the sky as
brightly as long ago, "when shepherds watched their flocks by night,"
and "the angel of the Lord came down." Mr. Lynde, as he walked and
thought—thought of that night, "within that province far away," to
which his destiny was now "linked" in a peculiar and tender relation.
He would not have been human not to have recalled that other night,
too, a year ago. So he walked the silent, moonlight streets, and
repeated softly—
"'In the solemn midnight,
Centuries ago,'"
He might walk and walk miles, though, it would not bring that other one
who walked by his side then. He might not have sighed so heavily at
that thought if his vision could have compassed distance and known who
watched the stars with him.
That these two paths should ever cross again, would seem as impossible
as that two small ships adrift on the wide ocean should "speak" each
other.
The ingenuity and perseverance with which he had prosecuted the
search all these months was something remarkable. As Boston is the
metropolis of Massachusetts, he made business trips to Boston, and the
"business" was to walk the streets, haunt picture galleries, attend
lectures and concerts, always searching for one face. He read Boston
papers, especially the list of marriages and deaths. He took the
westward journey many times, hoping she might have repeated the visit
to Aunt Ruth. Once he ventured to send her a letter through the Boston
post-office, and it came back to himself.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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