Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct: A medico-legal studyKrafft-Ebing, R. von (Richard)
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Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct: A medico-legal study
Krafft-Ebing, R. von (Richard)
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“But who could describe my fright, when, on the next morning, I awoke
and found myself feeling as if completely changed into a woman; and
when, on standing and walking, I felt vulva and mammæ! When at last I
raised myself out of bed, I felt that a complete transformation had
taken place in me. During my sickness a visitor said: ‘He is too
patient for a man.’ And the visitor gave me a plant in bloom, which
seemed strange, but pleased me. From that time I was patient, and
would do nothing in a hurry; but I became tenacious, like a cat,
though, at the same time, mild, forgiving, and no longer bearing
enmity,—in short, I had a woman’s disposition. During the last
sickness I had many visual and auditory hallucinations,—spoke with the
dead, etc.; saw and heard familiar spirits; felt like a double person;
but, while lying ill, I did not notice that the man in me had been
extinguished. The change in my disposition was a piece of good fortune
which came over me like lightning, and which, had it come with me
feeling as I formerly did, would have killed me; but now I gave myself
up to it, and no longer recognized myself. Owing to the fact that I
still often confounded neurasthenic symptoms with the gout, I took
many baths, until an itching of the skin with the feeling of scabies,
instead of being diminished, was so increased that I gave up all
external treatment (I was made more and more anæmic by the baths), and
hardened myself as best I could. But the imperative female feeling
remained, and became so strong that I wear only the mask of a man, and
in everything else feel like a woman; and gradually I have lost memory
of the former individuality. What was left of me from the gout, the
influenza ruined entirely.
“_Present Condition_: I am tall, slightly bald, and the beard is
growing gray. I begin to stoop. Since having the influenza, I have
lost about a quarter of my strength. Owing to a valvular lesion, my
face looks somewhat red; full beard; chronic conjunctivitis; more
muscular than fat. The left foot seems to be developing varicose
veins, and it often goes to sleep; but it is not really thickened,
though it seems to be.
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