Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct: A medico-legal studyKrafft-Ebing, R. von (Richard)
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Psychopathia sexualis: With especial reference to contrary sexual instinct: A medico-legal study
Krafft-Ebing, R. von (Richard)
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Since his flight X. lives out of Germany, in Southern Italy, and, as I
learned from a letter, now, as before, he indulges in perverse love.
X. is an earnest, stately man, of masculine features, well-grown
beard, and normally developed genitals. Dr. X. furnished me, a short
time ago, with his autobiography, of which the following is worthy of
mention:—
“When, at the age of seven, I entered the private school, I felt very
uncomfortable, and found very little sympathy with my companions. Only
toward one of them, who was a very handsome child, did I feel
attracted, and I loved him wildly. In childish games I always knew how
to arrange it so that I could appear in feminine attire; and my
greatest pleasure was to form intricate coiffures for our
servant-girls. I often regretted that I was not a girl.
“My sexual instinct awakened when I was thirteen, and from the moment
of its appearance was directed toward youthful, strong men. At first I
was not really certain that this was abnormal, but consciousness of it
came when I saw and heard how my companions were characterized
sexually. I began to masturbate at the age of thirteen. At seventeen I
left home and went to the Gymnasium of a large Capital, where I was
put to board with a married professor of the Gymnasium, with whose son
I afterward had sexual relations. It was with him that I first had
sexual satisfaction. Thereafter I made the acquaintance of a young
artist, who very soon noticed that I was abnormal, and confessed to me
that he was in the same condition. I learned from him that this
abnormality was very frequent; and this knowledge overcame the trouble
that I had had in supposing that I was alone in my abnormality. This
young man had an extensive acquaintance with persons in like
condition, to which he introduced me. There I became the object of
general attention, for on all sides I was declared to be very
attractive physically. I soon became insanely loved by an old
gentleman; but, not finding him to my taste, I endured him but a short
time, and then gave ear to a young and handsome officer who lay at my
feet. He was really my first love.
“After passing my final examination, at the age of nineteen, free from
the discipline of school, I made the acquaintance of a great number of
people like myself, and among them Karl Ulrichs (Numa Numantinus).
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