"Your foundation," he went on, with still further loss of motive power,
"would--gain nothing by bearing the name of my father. He was not
worthy.... No one knows that better than you. Will you tell me what
impulse put it into your mind to--to do this?"
"I--had many reasons," said she, speaking with some difficulty. "I will
tell you one. My father loved him once. I know he would like me to do
something--to make the name honorable again."
"That," he said, in a hard voice, "is beyond your power."
She showed no disposition to contradict him, or even to maintain the
conversation. Presently he went on:--
"I cannot let you injure your foundation by--branding it with his
notoriety, in an impulsive and--and fruitless generosity. For it would
be fruitless. You, of all people, must understand that the burden on
the other side is--impossibly heavy. You know that, don't you?"
She raised her head and looked at him.
Again, her pride had been plucking at her heartstrings, burning her with
the remembrance that he, when he gave her everything that a man could
give, had done it in a manner perfect and without flaw. And now she,
with her infinitely smaller offering, sat tongue-tied and ineffectual,
unable to give with a show of the purple, too poor-spirited even to
yield him the truth for his truth which alone made the gift worth the
offering.
Her blood, her spirit, and all her inheritance rallied at the call of
her pride. She looked at him, and made her gaze be steady: though this
seemed to her the hardest thing she had ever done in her life.
"I must not let you think that I wanted to do this only for your
father's sake. That would not be honest. Part of my pleasure in planning
it--most of it, perhaps--was because I--I should so much like to do
something for your father's son."
She rose, trying to give the movement a casual air, and went over to her
little desk, pretending to busy herself straightening out the litter of
papers upon it. From this safe distance, her back toward him, she forced
herself to add:--
"This reformatory will take the place of the one you--would have won for
us. Don't you see? Half-my happiness in giving it is gone, unless you
will lend me the name."
Behind her the silence was impenetrable.
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