As for him, and these new tidings which had come to the cottage
respecting him, she would have cared for them not a jot. Mrs.
Cornbury had cautioned her not to believe all that she heard; but she
had already declined,--had altogether declined to believe any of it.
It was to her, whether believed or disbelieved, matter altogether
irrelevant. A wife does not cease to love her husband because he
gets into trouble. She does not turn against him because others have
quarrelled with him. She does not separate her lot from his because
he is in debt! Those are the times when a wife, a true wife, sticks
closest to her husband, and strives the hardest to lighten the weight
of his cares by the tenderness of her love! And had she not been
permitted to place herself in that position with regard to him
when she had been permitted to love him? In all her thoughts she
recognized the right of her mother to have debarred her from the
privilege of loving this man, if such embargo had been placed on her
before her love had been declared. She had never, even within her
own bosom, assumed to herself the right of such privilege without
authority expressed. But her very soul revolted against this
withdrawal of the sanction that had been given to her. The spirit
within her rebelled, though she knew that she would not carry on that
rebellion by word or deed. But she had been injured;--injured almost
to death; injured even to death itself as regarded all that life
could give her worth her taking! As she thought of this injury that
fierce look of which I have spoken came across her brow! She would
obey her pastors and masters. Yes; she would obey them. But she could
never again be soft and pliable within their hands. Obedience in
this matter was a necessity to her. In spite of that wild thought
of throwing off her maiden bonds and allowing her female armour to
be splashed and sullied in the gutter, she knew that there was that
which would hinder her from the execution of such scheme. She was
bound by her woman's lot to maintain her womanly purity. Let her
suffer as she might there was nothing for her but obedience. She
could not go forth as though she were a man, and claim her right to
stand or fall by her love. She had been injured in being brought to
such plight as this, but she would bear her injury as best might be
within her power.
She was still thinking of all this, and still sitting with her eyes
turned towards the tower of the church, when she was touched on
the back by a light hand. She turned round quickly, startled by
the touch,--for she had heard no footstep,--and saw Martha Tappitt
and Cherry. It was Cherry who had come close upon her, and it was
Cherry's voice that she first heard. "A penny for your thoughts,"
said Cherry.
"Oh, you have so startled me!" said Rachel.
"Then I suppose your thoughts were worth more than a penny. Perhaps
you were thinking of an absent knight." And then Cherry began to
sing--"Away, away, away. He loves and he rides away."
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