ever so true it could not be expected that he should stand by his
love after he had been treated with such cold indifference as had
been shown in her letter! She would have stood by her love, let his
letter have been as cold as it might. But then she was a woman, and
her love, once encouraged, had become a necessity to her. A man, she
said to herself, would be more proud but less stanch. Of course she
would hear no more from him. Of course the gates of her Paradise
were shut. Such were her thoughts as she walked home, and such the
thoughts over which she sat brooding alone throughout the entire day.
At half-past seven in the evening Mrs. Ray came back home, wearily
trudging across the green. She was very weary, for she had now walked
above two miles from the station. She had also been on her feet half
the day, and, which was probably worse than all the rest had she
known it, she had travelled nearly eighty miles by railway. She was
very tired, and would under ordinary circumstances have been disposed
to reckon up her grievances in the evening quite as accurately as
Rachel had reckoned hers in the morning. But something had occurred
in Exeter, the recollection of which still overcame the sense of
weariness which Mrs. Ray felt;--overcame it, or rather overtopped it;
so that when Rachel came out to her at the cottage door she did not
speak at once of her own weariness, but looked lovingly into her
daughter's face,--lovingly and anxiously, and said some little word
intended to denote affection.
"You must be very tired," said Rachel, who, with many self-reproaches
and much communing within her own bosom, had for the time vanquished
her own hard humour.
"Yes, I am tired, my dear; very. I thought the train never would have
got to the Baslehurst station. It stopped at all the little stations,
and really I think I could have walked as fast." A dozen years had
not as yet gone by since the velocity of these trains had been so
terrible to Mrs. Ray that she had hardly dared to get into one of
them!
"And whom have you seen?" said Rachel.
"Seen!" said Mrs. Ray. "Who told you that I had seen anybody?"
"I suppose you saw Mr. Goodall."
"Oh yes, I saw him of course. I saw him, and the cottages are all
sold. We shall have seven pounds ten a year more than before. I'm
sure it will be a very great comfort. Seven pounds ten will buy so
many things."
"But ten pounds would buy more."
"Of course it would, my dear. And I told Mr. Goodall I wished he
could make it ten, as it would make it sound so much more regular
like; but he said he couldn't do it because the gas has gone up so
much. He could have done it if I had sixty pounds, but of course I
hadn't."
"But, mamma, whom did you see except Mr. Goodall? I know you saw
somebody, and you must tell me."
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