The red eyes looked redder than ever as Dr. Theobald opened them at the
unwarrantable sight of me; and he was terribly slow in answering. But
in the end he did answer, and did not kick me out as he evidently had a
mind.
“Mr. Maturin,” he said, and sighed like a beaten man.
I said nothing. It was no surprise to me. I had known it all these
minutes. Nay, I had dreaded this from the first, had divined it at the
last, though to the last also I had refused to entertain my own
conviction. Raffles dead! A real invalid after all! Raffles dead, and
on the point of burial!
“What did he die of?” I asked, unconsciously drawing on that fund of
grim self-control which the weakest of us seem to hold in reserve for
real calamity.
“Typhoid,” he answered. “Kensington is full of it.”
“He was sickening for it when I left, and you knew it, and could get
rid of me then!”
“My good fellow, I was obliged to have a more experienced nurse for
that very reason.”
The doctor’s tone was so conciliatory that I remembered in an instant
what a humbug the man was, and became suddenly possessed with the vague
conviction that he was imposing upon me now.
“Are you sure it was typhoid at all?” I cried fiercely to his face.
“Are you sure it wasn’t suicide—or murder?”
I confess that I can see little point in this speech as I write it
down, but it was what I said in a burst of grief and of wild suspicion;
nor was it without effect upon Dr. Theobald, who turned bright scarlet
from his well-brushed hair to his immaculate collar.
“Do you want me to throw you out into the street?” he cried; and all at
once I remembered that I had come to Raffles as a perfect stranger, and
for his sake might as well preserve that character to the last.
“I beg your pardon,” I said, brokenly. “He was so good to me—I became
so attached to him. You forget I am originally of his class.”
“I did forget it,” replied Theobald, looking relieved at my new tone,
“and I beg _your_ pardon for doing so. Hush! They are bringing him
down. I must have a drink before we start, and you’d better join me.”
There was no pretence about his drink this time, and a pretty stiff one
it was, but I fancy my own must have run it hard. In my case it cast a
merciful haze over much of the next hour, which I can truthfully
describe as one of the most painful of my whole existence. I can have
known very little of what I was doing. I only remember finding myself
in a hansom, suddenly wondering why it was going so slowly, and once
more awaking to the truth. But it was to the truth itself more than to
the liquor that I must have owed my dazed condition. My next
recollection is of looking down into the open grave, in a sudden
passionate anxiety to see the name for myself. It was not the name of
my friend, of course, but it was the one under which he had passed for
many months.
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