"My dear child, I do not consider that there is any shame. The shame
would die in repudiating a fundamental law of nature, of sacrificing two
lives to the fetish of conventional morality. What are the conventions,
that you should immolate yourself and your child to them? Your duty is
this: to bring your child into the world strong and healthy, and you owe
it to him to make his life as happy as shall lie in your power--beyond
that, nothing can rightly be required of you, and you can do no less.
You are no longer merely a girl, a woman, you are a mother!"
Ragna lifted her head; Ferrati's words opened new vistas to her
wondering gaze.
"A mother!" she echoed.
"Yes, a mother, and your first duty is to be true to your child--all the
rest comes after." His voice softened as he read the response to his
call in the girl's face. "You will be brave, you must be brave, for the
little one's sake. You see that now, do you not?"
"Yes, I understand that now--it was all so sudden, and so dreadful, it
took me unawares. But I see that you are right, I will be brave now, I
promise it."
Ferrati had touched the right chord, the chord of self-sacrifice, the
battle was won, and he knew it; never again would Ragna attempt
self-destruction, come what might.
"And now you will rest as I told you, until this afternoon?"
She signified "yes" with her head. Ferrati brought a glass of water from
the toilet table, and she took the little pellet. Then he rang for the
chambermaid, and when she had come, said to her:
"Help the Signorina into bed, she has a bad headache, and must rest. I
have given her some sleeping medicine, and I leave it to you to see that
she is not disturbed. You can tell the Signorina that I am coming back
later, and will speak to her then."
So he left the room a second time, his heart full of pity for the
wretched girl, the more so, as he had found her so readily responsive to
his appeal to duty.
"Poor child!" he repeated. "Poor, poor child!"
He returned to the Lido and lunched with his wife, but was silent and
preoccupied. The Signora, accustomed to these moods of her husband's,
when his patients caused him anxiety, forbore to question him. When he
had finished eating, he lit his _toscano_, and walked up and down the
long terrace of the hotel, his brows knit, his hands joined behind his
back; finally he rejoined his wife in her room, whither she had retired
for the siesta. She raised her head from the pillow, as he entered, and
put down the novel she had been reading.
"_Ebbene, Rico?_" she asked.
"Virginia mia, I am worried about a patient of mine, a girl who is in
great trouble--and I don't know what to do to help her!"
"Ragna Andersen?" she asked quietly.
"How did you guess?"
"My dear man, you are so hopelessly transparent! Besides, I am not
blind--a look at her face this morning would have been enough for
anybody."
"The fact is, Virginia, I don't know what to do about it."
"Can't she go home?"
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