It may be that he acquires some of these contemporary items of family information through sittings which are held in Mariemont, where of course all family gossip is told him freely, no outsider or medium being present. But the death of Mr. Jackson, and the idea of having him stuffed and put on a pedestal, were very recent, and I was surprised that he had knowledge of them. I emphasise the episode as exceptionally good.] He's trying to show Feda the side of a house; not a wall, it has got glass. He's taking Feda round to it; it has got glass stuff. Yes, and when you look in, it's like flowers inside and green stuff. He used to go there a lot--be there, he says. Red-coloured pots. O. J. L.--Is that anything to do with Mr. Jackson? He's shaking his head now. That's where mother got the flowers from. Tell her, she will know. [Illustration: "GRANDFATHER W."] [Illustration: "MR. JACKSON" WITH M. F. A. L. AT MARIEMONT] [There is more than one greenhouse that might be referred to. M. F. A. L. got the yellow jasmine, which she thinks is the flower referred to, from the neighbourhood of one of them. And it is one on which the peacock used commonly to roost; though whether the reference to it followed on, or had any connexion with, the peacock is uncertain, and seems to be denied.] Yes, he's not so clear now, Soliver. He _has_ enjoyed himself. Sometimes he enjoys himself so much, he forgets to do the good things he prepared. I could stay for hours and hours, he says. But he's just as keen as you are in getting tests through. I think I have got some. When I go away, I pat myself on the back and think, That's something for them to say, "Old Raymond does remember something." What does aggravate him sometimes is that when he can't get things through, people think it's because he has forgotten. It isn't a case of forgetting. He doesn't forget anything. Father, do you remember what I told mother about the place I had been to, and whom I had been allowed to see? What did they think of it? [See M. F. A. L. sitting with Mrs. Leonard, 4 February 1916, Chap. XX.] O. J. L.--Well, the family thought that it wasn't like Raymond. Ah, that's what I was afraid of. That's the awful part of it. O. J. L.--Well, I don't suppose they knew your serious side. Before he gave that to his mother, he hesitated, and thought he wouldn't. And then he said, Never mind what they think now, I must let mother and father know. Some day they will know, and so, what does it matter? He knew that they might think it was something out of a book, not me; but perhaps they didn't know that side of me so well. O. J. L.--No. But among the things that came back, there was a Bible with marked passages in it, and so I saw that you had thought seriously about these things. [page 11.] Yes, he says. Yet there's something strange about it somehow. We are afraid of showing that side; we keep it to ourselves, and even hide it.