Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
“No. When I married, I meant never to see her again. It was her
distress, and mere pity for her wants and miseries, that ever led
me back to her. I did not then know what you really were. I thought
you beautiful and gentle, but it was not till later that I learned
to honour you as a being of a holier, higher nature than any I had
yet met with. At the very time when you shut up your heart from me,
mine was filled with admiration, respect, and affection for you. Half
the jealousy I felt was, I believe, sorrow to see the first and only
being in whose unsullied purity I had firmly believed, on the point of
becoming contaminated by collision with the world.”
Lucy was touched by this homage to the rectitude of her intentions,
and she thought there would be something satisfactory in redeeming her
whole sex in his estimation. She also thought if she could lead him to
see the real guilt of those errors which he had hitherto looked upon
as so venial, she should be promoting his welfare in this world and
the next. With these feelings she answered smilingly, “I am glad you
entertained such a good opinion of me, and I should be very, very
sorry to forfeit it. You shall continue to respect me.”
“And to love you, dearest Lucy. Though I could not have reached the age
at which I married without having been in love before, still, to love
you as I never loved any woman but you——”
“Thank you,” answered Lucy, and she sighed to think that his
tenderness awakened no corresponding emotion in her bosom; that it was
forgiveness, satisfaction, kindness, that she felt, but no responsive
love.
On the contrary, the word rather chilled her; for she felt it
impossible to return the sentiment expressed; and she hastily added,
“Well, good by; I see your horses in the street, and I am going to take
the child to play with the Duchess of Altonworth’s grandchildren.”
They parted in kindness, and they met again before dinner in the same
frame of mind.
Lionel Delville, who had calculated upon finding Lucy alone, as Lord
Montreville was apt to be late for dinner, entered the apartment before
any of the rest of the company had arrived. At first he thought the old
fellow must be very jealous to have made so unusual an exertion; but
he soon perceived that a perfect understanding subsisted between them,
and that Lord Montreville’s countenance no longer betrayed any sign of
uneasiness at his approach.
He sat, as usual, by Lady Montreville at dinner, and he again found
the open, straightforward manner which, when first he met her, had
so completely baffled him. The _gêne_ and shyness which were the
consequence of feeling herself suspected, had completely vanished.
She knew that her husband now had perfect confidence in her; she knew
that he did justice to the purity of her intentions, and she mentally
resolved he should never, never have cause to doubt them.
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