Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
It was with difficulty that Algernon and Ellen could fix their eyes
upon the paper; every thing swam before them. They read in silence
the following letter—with what feelings may be better imagined than
described.
“My beloved Wife, my own Ellen,
“You must have been astonished at not hearing from me the result of
the desperate attempt to escape from Verdun, of which I informed you.
It succeeded! so far, at least, as getting safe out of that horrible
dungeon, disguised as one of the mourners at my own funeral, according
to the plan I hinted at in my letter by Maitland, and which he
promised to describe to you more fully when he reached England. I made
my way across the Rhine into Germany; but I found the examinations
so very strict, and the officers at the custom-houses so exceedingly
suspicious, that I fancied I should be safer if I advanced farther
into Germany, and tried to work my way to Hamburgh.
“I was, however, almost immediately seized as a spy. My ignorance of
the language was supposed to be a feint, and I was passed on, from
authority to authority, from governor to governor, till I believe they
began to think me a person of great importance.
“I was at length cast into a prison at this place; and here I have now
languished more than four years.
“I did not venture to write to you while wandering in France. All
letters being opened, they might have led to my being traced and
identified; and from the moment I was in the power of the Germans, I
was not allowed the use of pen and paper, lest there might be some
hidden meaning in any thing I might despatch to England.
“I have now endured four years of mental anguish, such as man has
seldom survived. There hangs a mist over some of the horrible
years spent in this abode of misery. The wretches who drove me to
desperation, treated me as a madman for resenting their cruelty, and I
found myself at one time pinioned in a straight waistcoat!
“Was it not enough to madden a cooler head than mine, to gall a calmer
heart than mine, to be thus severed from the creature one adores, to
know one’s lovely wife, left lonely and unprotected, in the bloom of
youth, amid all the temptations of this corrupt world? Oh, Ellen! I
shall go mad if I think of that! But you are virtuous, Ellen!—Yes,
yes—if there is virtue in woman it is in you. And yet—five long years
of absence! Oh! you will have forgotten me. You cannot have loved me,
and me alone, in all these years! Oh God! if you should have loved
another! My brain goes round! Be faithful to me, Ellen, as you value
my reason, and your own welfare, here and hereafter.
“But I am altered, fearfully altered. I am grown grey; I am twenty
years older than when we parted. But I love you, Ellen—I love you with
more ardour, more burning, maddening fervour, than when I first bore
you in your maiden bloom from the home of your childhood.
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