Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
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Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
Ellen was no sooner in her bed than she dropped into a profound
slumber, from which she awoke early the next morning, refreshed in
body, and with only a vague recollection of the tremendous change which
had taken place in her fate. By degrees her actual situation opened
upon her.
How dreadful is the waking from a real sound sleep of forgetfulness,
after any severe misfortune has befallen us! The temporary oblivion of
our sorrows scarcely compensates for the agony of recollection.
She was, however, aware of the necessity of concealing what she felt,
if she wished to preserve the illegitimacy of her child from becoming
public, while there was yet a hope of its remaining unknown. She passed
some time in humble prayer, imploring guidance from above, judgment to
know what was right, and strength to execute it.
She rose from prayer in a calmer frame of mind—she felt herself
fortified for the task before her— she thought that if Algernon left
her at Belhanger alone, there could be no crime in delaying the
promulgation of the dreadful secret, for the chance of saving herself
and her child from unmerited disgrace.
She went down to breakfast, and she made an attempt to smile in return
to the salutations and inquiries of her friends. She was in the act
of assuring them she was quite well, when Mr. Hamilton entered the
apartment. She started as she heard his well-known turn of the lock,
she faltered in her speech as he entered, her paleness was replaced by
a vivid glow, which overspread her face, but she turned not her eyes
upon him; she studiously avoided meeting his; the first sound of his
voice thrilled through her very being.
She took her station at the breakfast-table, upon the same spot where
yesterday she had received that fatal intelligence which had so
completely broken up her happiness. She took her station as mistress of
the mansion to which she had no longer any right. She felt she was an
impostor.
Mr. Hamilton, who had the preceding day buoyed himself up with
something more of hope than she had done, had passed a night of anxious
restlessness. Sleep had not for one moment weighed down his eyelids;
and when at length Ellen ventured almost by stealth to take one look at
that beloved countenance, her heart was pierced to see it so wan, so
haggard.
Their object was to avoid exciting remark. A plan was proposed, and
acceded to, of driving to see a fine castle in the neighbourhood, in
which was a collection of pictures. Ellen accompanied the ladies in an
open carriage, and Mr. Hamilton took the gentlemen across the country
on horseback.
While others were engaged in admiring some of the masterpieces of art,
Ellen found herself near Mr. Hamilton.
“Algernon, you look very ill,” she said: “it breaks my heart to see
you!”
“Can it be otherwise, Ellen? Even you can scarcely know the tortures I
endure.”
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