Recollections of a chaperonSullivan, Arabella Jane
General
Recollections of a chaperon
Sullivan, Arabella Jane
English fiction -- 19th century
Two or three weeks had now slowly dragged their weary length away,
and no fresh intelligence had arrived. It was nearly a month since
she had received the first, and she almost began to think he found it
impossible to make his escape. The friendly governor might be removed.
The mental aberration might, from over-excitement, have returned. She
felt wicked in, for a moment, anticipating such a circumstance with any
thing approaching to satisfaction; and yet the horror of another, and
still more appalling, solution of the difficulty, that he had succeeded
in his petition, and that he was on his way home, filled her with
dismay, which almost bewildered her senses.
One morning when she, as usual, received with trembling hands the
packet of letters, she perceived one from her brother with an
enclosure. With dizzy eyes she tore open the cover, and within found
another, with the same dreaded post-mark of Gratz. Despair gave her
courage to open it. It was indeed from Cresford, and be there told
her the governor had proved his kindest friend; that the Emperor had
listened favourably to his petition, and that he had every prospect of
being able to commence his journey to England in a few days,—that as
the time approached he felt ten thousand fears pass through his bosom.
How much might have happened since he left his home. His Ellen, to
whom he was now writing in the fulness of his heart, might possibly
be gathered to the dead. His children! were they still in existence?
“Oh, my dearest wife,” he continued, “you can form no conception of
the distracted and confused state of my mind when I think of the
changes that may have taken place among you. Of one thing I believe
I may rest assured, though my own wayward disposition has sometimes
been prone to unreasonable bursts of—jealousy, shall I say?—no, rather
sensitiveness,—for you will do me the justice to confess I never was
jealous of any individual,—of one thing I may rest assured, that I
shall find you pure, true, and virtuous as I left you. The knowledge
of your virtue has been my only consolation,—that conviction alone has
supported me through all my misfortunes. In one short month I shall be
at home, my Ellen, never, never again to part from you.”
This confirmation of what she most dreaded came upon her with almost
as great a shock as the first announcement of her misery. Yet she felt
ungrateful at making such a return for all the affection expressed by
Cresford, affection which had stood the test of time, which had been
his guiding principle in absence, imprisonment, even in madness.
The next moment she fancied that by such emotions she wronged Algernon,
her own adored Algernon, who was for ever torn from her, and doomed to
sufferings equal to her own.
In another month Cresford said he should be at home. The time had
nearly elapsed: he might arrive any day. There was not a moment to be
lost!
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account