"I beg your pardon!" he says, his countenance clearing, and passing his
arm round her half-shrinking, half-yielding form. "I will never dig him
up as long as I live. Peace to his ashes! Oh darling!" he continues,
his voice changing to an emphatic, eager, impassioned key--"I have been
so little used to having things go as I wish, that I can hardly believe
it is I that am standing here. Pinch me, that I may be sure that I am
awake! Oh Esther! is it really true? Can you possibly be fond of me? So
few people are! Not a soul in the wide world, I do believe, except my
old mother. The girl that I told you about last night lay in my arms,
and let me kiss her as you are doing; she kissed me back again, as
you do not do; I looked into her eyes, and they seemed true as truth
itself, and all the while she was _lying_ to me: my very touch must
have been hateful to her, as it is to you, perhaps?"
"You are always referring to that--that _person_," says Esther, lifting
great jealous eyes, and a mouth like a ripe cleft cherry, through the
misty twilight towards him. "I perceive that I am only a _pis aller_
after all. If you had ceased to care for her, you would have forgiven
her long ago, and have given up measuring everybody else by her
standard."
"I have forgiven her fully and freely," he answers, magnanimously, and
standing heart to heart with a woman
".........fairer than the evening air,
Clad in the beauty of a thousand stars;
More lovely than the monarch of the sky,
In wanton Arethusa's azured arms."
He may afford to be magnanimous. "I not only forgive her, but hale down
blessings on her own and her plunger's ugly head. To be candid," he
ends, laughing, "I forgave her a year ago, when I met her at Brainton
Station, grown fat, with a red nose, and a tribe of squinting children,
who, but for the finger of Providence interposing, might have been
mine."
Speaking, he lays his lips upon the blossom of her sweet red mouth; but
she, pricked with the sudden smart of recollected treachery, draws away
from him.
"Come," she says, with a slight shiver, "let us go home. We shall get
into dreadful disgrace as it is; what will Sir Thomas say?"
"I can tell you beforehand," says St. John, gaily; "he will say,
with his usual charming candour, that, if we ask his opinion, we are
a couple of fools to go gadding about to strange churches just to
see a parcel of lighted candles and squeaking little boys and popish
mummeries; that, for his part, he has stuck to his parish church for
the last fifty years, and means to do so to the end of the chapter; and
that, if we don't choose to conform to the rules of his house, &c."
"Does he always say the same?" asks Esther, smiling.
"Always. A long and affectionate study of his character has enabled
me to predicate with exactness what he will say on any great subject,
Esther."
"How do you know that my name is Esther?" she asks naïvely. "You have
never heard any one call me so."
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