bed in the scant poor room, with that serene stern smile that only dead
mouths wear on his solemn changed face?--that smile that seems to say,
"I have overcome! I _know!_"
Esther's love for Jack is great as love can be--greater than Jonathan's
for David, greater than David's for Absalom; and this pale, prone
figure is unearthly fair and grand; but can she connect the two ideas?
What have they to say to one another? Can she realise that if this form
be not her brother, neither will she find him again on the earth's
face, though she seek him carefully with tears. For one instant it
comes home to her; for one instant light darts into her soul--light
keen and cruel as the forked lightning flash that, on some mirk night,
glares blinding bright into a dark room, illumining every object as
with the furnace-fires of hell! She sinks on her trembling knees by the
bedside, and says, with dumb, heart-wrung entreaty--"God! God! give
him back to me, or let me go where he is."
But the great Lord that said once, "Lazarus, come forth!" has said
"Come forth!" to never another since him. "Lie thou still, till I
call thee!" He says; and none durst move hand or foot. But since he
cannot come to her, why should not she go to him? Has the disease that
slew him spent all its force on that one slight frame? Is not there
enough of it left to kill her too? It was Juliet's thought when she
spake reproachingly to her dead Romeo, as she looked into the empty
poison-cup--
"Oh, churl! drink all and leave no friendly drop,
To help me after----."
Suddenly Brandon's beseeching words recur to her: "Promise not to
kiss him, Essie!" If she kiss him, he may give her the boon of death.
Instantly she rises, and stooping over him, lays her tremulous warm
lips on his still cheek. The unearthly awful cold of the contact
between the dead and the living strikes a chilly shrinking along her
veins and limbs; but not for that shrinking does she desist. Again
and again she kisses him, driven on by that strong drear hope, saying
moaningly, "My boy,! my boy!--give it me! give it me!" Then unbelief
comes back. This is not Jack: he is somewhere else. She will find him
by-and-by. This is very terrible, this present experience, but she
catches herself thinking she will tell Jack all about it when she
sees him. To the incredulity succeeds a stupid apathy. She sinks down
upon her knees again, with her elbows resting on the counterpane, and
fixes her stony eyes upon the dead stripling; watches him; looks at
him steadfastly, without intermission; looks at "the shell of a flown
bird," as the old philosopher very grandly said. She does not know
how long she means to stay there; she does not know how long she has
already staid there; when some one entering, lays his hand upon her
shoulder, and says, with kindly gravity, "Come away, dear!"
"I am doing no harm!" she answers dully, not moving her eyes.
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