From among the scant brown mountain-grass, the limestone crops
frequent, in peaks, and slabs, and riven rock-fragments. Far down in
chinks and crevices little black-stemmed ferns grow darkling, and over
the rock's rough face, the lichens, drab and yellow, make their little
plans and charts. One may fancy some former people of strong giants
sleeping very sweetly beneath those unchiselled tombstones, with their
epitaphs written out fairly in Nature's hand in green mosses and rain
furrows. In spring the hill's harsh front is crowned with a yellow
splendour of gorse-flowers, but now a single blossom blows here and
there desolate, just to hinder the old saying from being quite a lie.
Below, in the valley, the mists roll greyly; and out above them Naullan
church spire rises, pointing heavenwards, as if showing the way to the
dead flock gathered round its feet; points heavenwards, like the finger
of some sculptured saint.
The autumn winds are piping bleakly, singing an ugly peevish dirge for
the gone summer, bending the frost-seared brake-fern all one way, and
with rough hands pushing back Robert and Esther, saying, "This is _our_
territory; what brings you here?"
Esther shivers.
"You are cold, I'm afraid," says Brandon, anxiously, putting his head
on one side, not out of sentimentality, but in the endeavour to keep
his hat on.
"Yes," she answers, rapidly; "and I'm glad of it. I should _hate_ to
feel warm and comfortable; I want to be cold, and faint, and miserable
_always_. Do you know," she continues, excitedly, laying her hand on
his arm, "yesterday I _laughed?_--yes! I actually _laughed!_ and it
is only a fortnight since--wasn't it horrible of me? I want the days
and the weeks to go by quickly: I want it to be a long time since Jack
died!"
Brandon makes no answer--partly because he is utterly at a loss for a
reply, partly because he is still wrestling with his hat. Presently
they come to a disused quarry, where the quarrymen have hewn out
rock-ledges into comfortable seats for them. The wind howls above them,
angry and sad, and flings hither and thither the flowerless broom-pikes
that look over the cliffs, but it cannot reach them.
"Esther," says Bob, taking up a sharp stone, and beginning to draw
white lines on the rock's smooth surface, "it seems as if I had no
other occupation nowadays than to say disagreeable things to you, but
I cannot help it: do you think you can bear to leave Glan-yr-Afon in
three weeks or so?"
"Bear!" she repeats, bitterly; "I can bear anything--I have proved that
already, I think. Any one that had had any feeling would have died of
_this;_ but I--I sleep and eat as well as ever: I am like the baker who
refused Christ the loaf--I _cannot_ die!"
"Hush!" he says, eagerly; "don't want to go before your time, or
perhaps the Almighty might take you at your word."
There is silence for a moment or two, then Brandon speaks again: "At
the end of three weeks you will come to us then?"
No answer.
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