It is Sunday evening. Miss Craven has been to church for the first
time since her _bereavement_, as people call it. She has displayed
her crape in all its crisp funeral newness before the eyes of the
Plas Berwyn congregation. Also, she has been made the subject of
conversation, over their early dinner, between the imbecile rector
and his vinegar-faced, bob-curled wife; the latter remarking how
unfortunately unbecoming black was to poor Miss Craven--really
impossible to tell where her bonnet ended and her hair began; and how
lucky it was for her that people did not wear mourning for as long a
time as they used--three months being _ample_ nowadays, _ample_ for
a brother! Esther has sat in their pew for the first time alone: she
has looked at Jack's prayer-book, at his vacant corner under the dusty
cobwebbed window, with eyes dryly stoic; she has walked firmly after
service down the church-path, past a grassless hillock, where he who
was her brother lies, dumbly submitting to the one terrific, changeless
law of decay--the law that not one of us can face, as applying to
ourselves, without our brains reeling at the horror of it. Oh! thrifty,
harsh Nature! that, without a pang of relenting, unmixes again those
cunningest compounds that we call our bodies--making the freed elements
that formed them pass into new forms of life--makes us, who erewhile
walked upright, godlike, fronting the sun, communing with the high
stars--makes _us_, I say, creep many-legged in the beetle, crawl blind
in the worm!
It is evening now, and Esther sits, in her red armchair, beside the
drawing-room fire, _alone_ again. The wind comes _banging_ every
minute against the shuttered French window, as one that boisterously
asks to be let in; the ivy leaves are dashed against the pane, as one
that sighingly begs for admittance. Every now and then the young girl
looks round timidly over her shoulder, in the chill expectation of
seeing a death-pale spirit-face gazing at her from some corner of the
room; every now and then she starts nervously, as a hot cinder drops
from the grate, or as the small feet of some restless mouse make a
hurry-skurrying noise behind the wainscot. As often as she can frame
the smallest excuse, she rings the bell, in order to gather a little
courage from the live human face, the live human voice, of the servant
that answers it.
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