Meanwhile Miss Blessington, a little out of breath with her exertions,
is resting on a chair, in bright blue velvet and a more delicate
pink-and-white porcelain face than any of the other shepherdesses.
Over her Gerard is leaning--frowning, sad, and heavy-hearted. Over and
over again he has tried to turn his eyes to other groups, but again
and again, contrary to his will, they return and fix themselves upon
that slender staggering figure in black. Once he sees her on the point
of falling--saved only by being caught with quick adroitness in her
companion's arms. He draws his breath involuntarily hard. How dare any
man but he touch her--lay a finger upon her fair person? One of the
old simple instincts, stronger--oh, how far stronger!--than any of the
restrictions with which our civilisation has sought to bind them--a
great lust of raging jealousy--is upon him.
"I _hate_ her!" he says to himself, fiercely; "she is a vile
unprincipled coquette. Thank God, I found her out in time! Thank God, I
washed my hands of her before it was too late! And yet--and yet--if I
could but pick a quarrel with that fellow!"
What right has Gerard to object if every man upon the ground catch her
in big arms, and hold her there under his very eyes? He has washed his
hands of her, thank God! All his rights of proprietorship in womankind
centre in the calm blue statue, smiling with even placidness on
himself, on his poodle, on all the world--his Constance, whom no one is
thinking of taking from him; his own--oh, blissful thought!--in life,
in death, and in eternity!
In the meantime the remarks upon Esther vary from the wildly laudatory
to the discriminatingly censuring.
"She is extwemely dark," says the _dwagoon_, as he would have called
himself; "a thowough bwunette; must have a touch of the tar-bwush, I
fancy!"
The stable-clock strikes four. Esther starts, as much as scullion
Cinderella started at the chiming midnight. "I must go" she says,
hastily; "I shall be wanted."
"Wanted?" he repeats, inquiringly. "And are not you wanted here? You
cannot be in two places at once, like a bird."
"Mrs. Blessington will want me--I am her companion," she answers,
colouring slightly. "I daresay you did not know it." ("He would
not have been so civil to me if he had, I daresay," is her mental
reflection.)
"Yes, I did."
"Who told you?--or have all 'companions' such a family likeness that
you detected me at a glance?"
"Miss Blessington told me; and for the first time in my life I wished
myself an old woman," he replies, sentimentally.
She laughs, a little embarrassed. She knows as well as he does that he
does _not_ wish to be an old woman, even for the pleasure of having her
to carry his air-cushion and spectacle-case. But civil speeches are
always more or less untrue, and none the less pleasant for that.
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