Night's black sheet drawn off the other half of the world is thrown
over us; the dark side of the lantern is turned towards us. Esther has
fallen asleep, with almost a happy smile upon her soft, parted lips.
She is forgiven; and is there any sweetness like the sweetness of being
pardoned, having sinned? He no longer hates her! That was not hate that
looked out of his quick, keen eyes to-day, as he leant over her while
she sat, dizzy and faint, on that churchyard slab, or as he knelt in
strong emotion at her knees. And now, though at her own telling, he is
going away from her to-morrow--though, when next they meet, either they
will have put off mortality's tatters, God will have laid
"Death, like a kiss, across their lips;"
or else, to look and lean as he looked and leant to-day will be deadly
sin--yet creeps there a sorrowful joy about her heart. He has given her
back the past--the short, happy Felton past; no one can take it from
her again; not even Miss Blessington, who has taken all else--present
and future and all. She is dreaming of him now--dreaming that she is
sitting in the library at Felton, in the fragrant gloom made by the
lowered Venetian blinds, by dark oak bookshelves, by plentiful sweet
flowers, and so sitting hears the sound of his quick feet coming along
the passage. He is at the door--he is opening it. But, ah! what is
this?--it will not open; it is stiff on its hinges. He is pushing
it--pushing gently, pushing hard--but it will not move. What a stealthy
noise it is he makes, as if he were afraid of some one hearing him! She
starts up, broad awake; it is not all dream; there is some one pushing
stealthily, yet audibly, against a door. For the first bewildered
moment of sick fear she imagines that it is her own door on which this
attempt is being made; but a moment's listening undeceives her. The
sound comes from underneath her window, apparently. It is not rats
this time; a rat, with all its ingenuity, would be puzzled to make a
noise so distinctly human. Upon her mind there flashes suddenly the
recollection of a door leading into the garden beneath her casement,
but not so immediately beneath but that she can see it; a door that
stands wide open all the summer through, when people step from house
to garden, from garden to house, a hundred times a day, but which in
winter is rarely used. She sits up motionless, while round her utter
darkness surges. The noise is repeated: push--push! creak--creak! it is
as if some one, with hand and knee, were attempting to obtain entrance.
When light is withdrawn hearing becomes preternaturally sharpened; in
an instant she has jumped out of bed, and run barefoot over the cold
boards to the window. There, pulling aside the blind, she, trembling
all over, peeps out. Moon is there none, but the joint light of
countless star-squadrons, faint though it be, is yet strong enough to
enable her distinctly to make out the figure of a man pressing itself
against the door in question.
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