Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
His wife frowned; then, she, too, began to laugh. She was as incapable
as he of imagining the state of nerves that could lead, in Louise, to
such an outburst. To speak one's mind, noisily and emphatically, was a
daily occurrence for her. Silence was stupidity, and meekness
irritating. This "row" was unusual because Louise had taken part in it,
but she certainly thought no worse of her step-daughter on that account.
The child should be sent to bed early as a punishment, she decided, but
good-humouredly enough. She was too thick-skinned to be pricked by
Louise's repudiation. She dismissed it as "temper." Its underlying
criticism of her character escaped her utterly.
By the time the attic was cleared and the paperhanger at work, she had
forgotten the matter.
CHAPTER XVIII
It is not impossible to sympathise with Ahab.
It must have been difficult for him, with his varied possessions, to
realise the value to Naboth of his vineyard. He had offered
compensation. Naboth would undoubtedly have gained by the exchange.
Ahab, owning half Palestine, must have been genuinely puzzled by this
blind attachment to one miserable half-acre. One wonders what would have
happened if they had met to talk over the matter. Ahab, convinced of the
generosity of his offer, courteously argumentative, carefully repressing
his not unnatural impatience, would have contrasted favourably with the
peasant, black, fierce, dumb, incapable of explaining himself, conscious
only of his own bitter helplessness in the face of oppression and loss.
The Naboth mood is a dangerous one. Fierce emotions, unable to disperse
themselves in speech, can turn in again upon the mind that bred them, to
work strange havoc. The affair of the attic, outwardly so trivial, shook
the child's nature to its foundation. Though one's house be built of
cards, it is none the less bedazing to have it knocked about one's ears.
To Louise, the loss of her holy place, but yet more the manner of its
loss, was catastrophic. Her nerves, frayed and strained by weeks of
overwork and excitement, snapped under the shock. Her sense of
proportion failed her. Miss Hartill, the examination, all that made up
her life, faded before this monstrous desecration of an ideal. She
suffered as Naboth, forgetting also his greater goods of life and kith
and kin, suffered before her.
Before she reached the school the violence of her emotion had faded, and
she was in the first stage of the inevitable physical reaction. She felt
weak and shaken. She was going, she knew, to her examination. She
wondered idly why she did not feel nervous. She tried to impress the
importance of the occasion upon herself, but her thoughts eluded
her--sequence had become impossible. She gave up the attempt, and her
mind, released, returned to the scene of the morning in incessant,
miserable rehearsal.
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